A Terminally Ill Villainess Refuses To Be Adopted - Chapter 21

“What.” (Potion maker)

“…What?” (Eve)

“Why is your face as messy as a monster carcass?” 

“Can’t you change the way you express yourself, Master?”

 “If you don’t like it, don’t come. Even if I do not send for errands, I eat well and live well. But that’s not the case for you.”

“That’s a wise thing to say, Master.”

“…You keep adding Master, are you being sarcastic with me?”

“No way.”

After the messy morning, I came again to observe a low-level potion maker in the neighborhood.

And after finishing some of his errands, I trudged home. 

‘How do you I look at Raven’s face?’

No, what should I say?

In fact, I had organized my answers, but I didn’t know how to express my apologies.

‘Maybe even after I apologized, he will ask me what I’m up to.’

After much deliberation, I chose to get a gift for Raven.

I can’t do anything other than this because we are not in a good situation.

With the thought of being rejected in mind, my mood went down.

When I went inside the house, sullen Raven, who was a little dirtier and had slightly messy clothes compared to when I went to the potion maker, was waiting for me.

I was startled by the sight and froze.

Has he been outside? A kid who would be ruined if caught?

“Evelyn.”

And why is he holding something in his fist and sticking it out?

“What’s this?”

Wondering what it was, I received it, but before I could even confirm what it was, Raven apologized in a subdued voice.

“I’m sorry. And.”

“……”

“I’m leaving now.”

Notifying me about his departure.

* * *

For a moment, I was confused as to what I was hearing, but Raven spoke again.

“You better not speak anywhere or tell anyone that you saw me.”

It sounds like a threat, but at the same time, it wasn’t one. I knew his personality, he didn’t even want to kill me, he was just talking calmly.

‘Raven.’

He opened up his heart before I knew it, and built an even bigger wall before I could do anything about it.

I stared at his cold face and asked.

“How are you going to live alone? Your body isn’t healthy yet.”

“I’m much better now, so it’s fine.”

What do you mean by fine?

I knew better than anyone else what his wounds were like.

“But is that all you want to say?” (Raven)

“Then what should I say?” (Eve)

When I asked in a daze, Raven kicked his tongue. 

“Anyway, you are…”

It seemed like he was looking at me while thinking I was a little pitiful. 

It’s true that I’m pitiful, but I think he’s heading in the wrong direction right now?

“I’m not a pushover…” (Eve)

“What?” (Raven)

“No, just.”

Anyway, isn’t this an opportunity?

My chance of survival.

Looking at the child now, it seemed unlikely that he would try to kill me in the future even if he went away like this.

‘But.’

This is given me a headache.

I silently looked at him and said as I pleased.

“You know, I don’t know why you care about me looking at the forest, but the reason I do that is that there are herbs called {Bard} all over the place.”

Raven, who was about to turn around to get some clothes, stopped. Then he turned back and said with a slightly loosened face.

“Bard?”

“Yes. The grass I eat at dinner. I was thinking about whether to buy it or not. I told you last time. I don’t have any money and I don’t think I can get a job in this town.”

Raven blinked, he seemed a little embarrassed.

“That’s why you were looking over there with such a serious face?”

“It’s a very serious problem for me, if I don’t eat Bard…!”

Oops.

If I say I will die without {Bard}, the explanation becomes complicated again!!

I awkwardly changed my words. 

“Anyway.”

“What do you mean by anyway?”

“I mean to say It’s important to me. That’s what you need to know, right? Oh, are you trying to know something else? You don’t even tell me everything either.”

After checking his relaxed mood and playfully talking as usual, Raven laughed in low spirits.

After smiling at him like that, I slowly approached and gently grabbed Raven’s hand.

 “And the reason I want to live with you is that I’m lonely.”

He flinched as soon as my hand touched his, but Raven didn’t let go or pushed me back.

“I told you before, didn’t I? So you can’t go.”

If I say this much, I don’t think he will go away because he was a proud kid.

So, kid, stay here until is safe, then you can go on your path.

I will also see you as who you are. 

I smiled harmlessly, expressing apologies that I couldn’t deliver because I didn’t have grounds to explain why I was feeling sorry.

In the end, I could only think that the presence of Raven, who was smiling, was very pretty.

* * *

Raven stared at Evelyn, who gave a shy smile.

Looking at that face, he realized.

That he could no longer doubt this kid.

However, once the excitement had cooled, embarrassment came upon. Eventually, they awkwardly let go of each other’s hands.

“No, well.”

With a slightly blushed face, Evelyn said something he didn’t ask.

“I’m not bored because of Sera and Jack, but they don’t work for my loneliness. Well, that’s what I mean.”

After staring at it, Raven asked back in a serious tone.

“…Would you like me to kill them?”

“No, stop trying to kill them.”

Raven seemed strangely dissatisfied, but Evelyn repeatedly asked him not to kill them.

* * *

What should I do when I’m embarrassed because what I did is so corny. 

Why are you holding his hand? Why! 

Still, seeing Raven’s expressionless face made it bearable. After such a wave of embarrassment passed, I regained my composure and opened up what I was holding.

Raven gave it to me a little ago when he said he was leaving.

“…A silver coin?”

As I spoke blankly, Raven blinked as he slipped the tip of his chin forward. It was an expression of asking what the problem was.

…I think he moved first before I could ask anything because his tail was about to be stomped.

Looking at him with my squinted eyes, Raven said something I didn’t ask.

“I picked it up.”

Raising his eyebrows, he spoke again.

“I didn’t steal this one.”

“If ‘this’ one was not stolen, how did you get it?”

“It asked for it.”

(Note: the word was implying he ‘begged’ on the street. But you know what Raven’s ‘begged’ means right. Lol)

Oh, my God.

What is the best way to properly guide someone’s character?

No. Let’s just give up.

“I see.”

Of course, I’m going to point it out, but there was something more important than that.

It was my apology gift.

Thinking about it, the corners of my lips twitched. I felt like I was seeing a little brother who grew up after not meeting for weeks.

“Don’t do that.” (Raven)

“Huh? Do what?” (Eve)

“Looking at me like I’m a baby.”

Like I’m a baby.

He didn’t seem to know how cute that line sounded.

I laughed out loud and roughly passed my answer, then showed Raven, who looked at me with displeasure, what I had brought.

“Ta-da.”

“What’s this?”

That’s right, sugar and baking soda. Bread is available in this town, so I was able to get baking soda.

“I begged the aunty that works in Sera’s bakery to give me some.”

Fortunately, she was one of the few people who spoke with me, so when I offered money, she pretended not to win.

I was very anxious!

Like Raven earlier, I put out the tip of my chin forward by a little and made a look.

Raven alternated between the sugar, the baking soda, and then me. And he looked at me with eyes that he felt sorry for me like never before.

“What are you going to do with this?”

“I’m going to make cookies.”

“I gave you a silver coin. Let’s just buy and eat.”

This silly kid.

Raven, who didn’t care about accepting my heart, had a genuinely innocent expression on his face.