Back When I Was the Female Top Gun

Chapter 9: Heartache

Translator: Atlas Studios Editor: Atlas Studios

“L.. Idon’t know.”

I didn’t know who her brother was. Nor did I know anything about the dark side of the world. I had always been studying quietly in the six years I had been here and had never understood such things.

“Let me tell you, her brother is the boss of the high school. His name is Wang Hao, and he has many underlings. He seems to have a good relationship with the hooligans outside the school. Basically, no one in our school dares to provoke him,” Li Ting said solemnly.
I knew that Wang Fangfang was still related to that school bully. I silently reminded myself not to provoke her in the future.

Then, for the next three weeks, Li Ting kept telling me about Wang Fangfang and Liu Tao.

After school today, I walked home with Li Ting as usual.

“Shen Ling, do you know that Wang Fangfang and Liu Tao are together?” Li Ting suddenly said to me. These days, we had been talking about Wang Fangfang and Liu Tao.

“I didn’t know that. Really?” For some reason, I really didn’t want Liu Tao to be with Wang Fangfang. I couldn’t help but ask myself if I really liked him.

“Of course it’s true. Someone has already seen them kissing in the forest beside the field,” Li Ting said firmly.
“What’s a kiss?” I asked curiously.

Fortunately, Li Ting had already gotten used to my silly questions these days.

“Kissing is like when the lips of two people touch. However, Wang Fangfang and Liu Tao are really compatible. One is handsome and the other is beautiful,” Li Ting explained to me.

‘As soon as I heard this, I felt like a thunderclap had exploded in my mind. At this moment, I was unprecedentedly sad. I didn’t know why, but I was very sad.

Li Ting looked at the disappointed me and asked worriedly, “Are you alright? Don’t tell me you really like Liu Tao?”

“No, no. Last time, I only said that because I didn’t know what it meant to like someone.” I hurriedly denied it.

After we separated, I walked upstairs. The more I thought about it, the more uncomfortable I felt. Liu Tao was the only person who had treated me sincerely. Now that he had been stolen by Wang Fangfang, I felt empty and did not know what to do.
Thinking of this, a few tears streamed down my face subconsciously. I didn’t know when I started crying so much. I hurriedly wiped my tears and walked home.

‘When I returned home, I saw Instructor Liu and Liu Tao packing their things. I was somewhat puzzled.

“Instructor Liu, what are you guys doing?”

“Oh, it’s nothing. Liu Tao is going to stay at his aunt’s house. I’m helping him pack his luggage. It’s none of your business. Hurry up and do your homework,” Instructor Liu explained to me.

I could clearly see the joy in his eyes. I knew that once Liu Tao left, Instructor Liu would definitely try to do something to me again. I couldn’t help but be afraid. I couldn’t finish my homework, either. I only hoped that Liu Tao wouldn’t leave.

“Liu Tao is leaving. Come and send him off.”

Instructor Liu opened the door to my room and walked in.

I got up to send Liu Tao off. When I walked to Instructor Liu, he whispered to me, “Just you wait. Now that Liu Tao is gone, I want to see who can save you this time.”

I was suddenly overcome with fear and froze in place.

“What are you waiting for? Hurry up and send your brother off.” Instructor Liu’s voice was magnified as if nothing had happened.

If not for the fact that I had indeed heard those words just now, I would have still thought that Instructor Liu was a good person who wanted me to get close to Liu Tao.

I sent Liu Tao downstairs, but Instructor Liu did not follow me.

“What? Aren’t you going to ask me to stay behind?” Liu Tao looked at me and asked.

“Brother Liu Tao, be… be careful on the way.” I originally wanted to ask him to stay, but when I thought of how he was already with Wang Fangfang and had even kissed her, I felt uncomfortable.

Moreover, | felt that if I wanted Liu Tao to stay, it would mean that I was snatching someone else’s man. Others had always been insulting me, but I didn’t want more people to curse at me. I only thought that I should let Liu Tao go to his aunt’s house and use this time to calm down.
“Alright, I’ll be careful. Don’t you feel any reluctance at all?”

Liu Tao stared at me.

Seeing his expression, I had the urge to tell him what I was thinking, but I held back and only said, “Brother Liu Tao, you should go. Don’t make your aunt wait any longer.”

Hearing this, Liu Tao turned around and left angrily.

I watched as he left, knowing that I might lose this brother who had always protected me.

After returning to my room, I locked myself in the room and took out a new bra. Liu Tao had bought it for me a few days ago, so I secretly hid it.

I remember him saying that I had grown up and could no longer wear the bra with the butterfly knot that I used to wear.

After giving me the bra, he even asked me if I was dressed appropriately. I could only say hesitantly that I was not dressed yet.

I didn’t want Instructor Liu to throw the bra away like how he threw away the bag of red candy Liu Tao bought for me previously.

I still remember Liu Tao feeling bad as he looked at the bag of red candy in the trash can for many days.

However, he didn’t know that I had secretly picked it up and finished it.

I sat on the bed alone and thought about everything that had happened with Liu Tao. I felt an inexplicable bitterness in my heart. I always treated those who bullied me cowardly, but I avoided Liu Tao, who was good to me.

‘Thinking of how Liu Tao had treated me, protected me, and cared for me all these years, tears streamed down my face again.

That night, I didn’t sleep. Instead, I kept thinking about Liu Tao. Finally, I made up my mind and decided to tell Liu Tao to come back. I wanted to live with him.

‘The next day, during my lunch break, I went to the high school section to find Liu Tao. I knew that he never took lunch breaks. He had already rested when he was in class in the morning. During his lunch break, he would go to the Internet café to play.

At that moment, I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted to find Liu Tao and tell him that I couldn’t bear for him to leave. I wanted him to go home and I wanted to tell him that I secretly picked up the bag of red candy he gave me and ate it. I wanted him to know that every bra he bought for me fit me
perfectly.

Just as I arrived at the field below the high school building, I looked at Liu Tao, who was holding Wang Fangfang’s arm as they walked past.
‘When Wang Fangfang saw me, she deliberately tumed her body to block Liu Tao’s gaze.

Just like that, the two of them were about to disappear in front of me. I was so anxious that I wanted to shout Liu Tao’s name and chase after him.

However, before I could take a step, I was blocked by a tall figure.

I looked up and saw a very handsome and powerful-looking boy.

However, this boy was smoking and had yellow hair. It was obvious that he was a hooligan. I was afraid and took two steps back. Then, I stammered, “Who are you? What do you want?”

A person next to the boy asked casually, “What do you think the two of us are trying to do by stopping a woman?”