Be Indulged - Chapter 8

Chapter 8 – Part 1

Six years ago, Amelia visited her fiancé’s estate in the north for a vacation. It was the same sun, but strangely, the northern sunlight stung less, and the wind was also cool.

“Wow, it’s really cool here.”

“Right? You won’t be able to experience this coolness in such a small place like yours.”

“…….”

Amelia was speechless for a moment. Of course, she understood what Elliot just said, but sometimes, she still got hurt by words like these.

“Have a good rest here this summer. Julius is also staying.”

“If it’s Julius, then Sir Reinkel?”

“Yes, he said he’ll be here with his brother.”

“Really? How old is that child?”

“Thirteen? I’m not sure. It’s the first time I’ve met him. Apparently, he said he wants to go around the world.”

“It’s a really great aspiration.”

Amelia sincerely thought so. And she also felt that it’s good to see Sir Reinkel again.

In addition, curiosity sparked about the younger brother of Sir Reinkel, as Sir Reinkel was the empire’s number one bachelor.

“Come on. I’ll show you around the castle.”

Elliot grabbed her arm and dragged her before Amelia could even follow. She sighed inwardly and let herself be led away by Elliot.

“Long time no see, Miss Laszlo.”

“It’s been a while, Sir Reinkel.”

Amelia looked at Reinkel’s face. He still had good features, and he had a figure that made many women’s hearts flutter. Of course, Amelia was also thrilled to see Reinkel.

Even so, she blamed herself. It’s not that she didn’t like him and it’s not that she did anything wrong, but she thought that it was rude to think of someone from the opposite sex other than her fiancé being handsome.

“The child next to you…”

“Oh, he’s my younger brother.”

The way he said ‘younger brother’ was a bit awkward, but no one noticed it—they were all curious about who the younger brother of the imperial knight Reinkel was, and focused their attention on him. With black hair, the boy’s head was bowed down. There were a few freckles on his face.

“Hello, Young Sir Reinkel.”

When he didn’t answer, Amelia was left puzzled.

On the other hand, Carlos found his position awkward.

He couldn’t hold his head up high. He was disrespected and neglected by his parents, as if he was not part of the imperial family. He had to go back and forth almost as if he had been kicked out.

Fortunately, Sir Reinkel wasn’t a bad person, so he traveled to places of the other nobles with him as he tried to cheer up Carlos. But it just hurt even more to go to so many places.

His older brother, Claude, was also a handsome man, but Reinkel was also a handsome enough man. Seeing the passive attitude of the ‘younger brother’ Carlos, people immediately expressed their disappointment in him. It will be no different here. Carlos was pessimistic.

“You’re more shy than I thought?”

“Ack!”

Carlos was startled and almost fell backwards. Because a woman’s face suddenly appeared in front of him. Raising his head with an astonished face, the woman looked at him as she leaned towards him, a smile on her lips.

“Miss Laszlo.”

Reinkel called as if to give caution.

“Sorry. I thought your brother was nervous, so I tried to comfort him.”

Her tone was lighthearted. Carlos looked closely at the absurd person’s face.

“Now you can lift your head and look at me. Nice to meet you, Young Sir Reinkel. I am Amelia Laszlo. You can call me Sister Amelia.”

“…….”

Although his life was short, he had never seen such a person before. Trying to make eye contact with her, as avoiding her gaze would make him look like a coward, he spoke.

“Nice… Nice to meet you, Miss Laszlo.”

“Yes, nice to meet you.”

Her smile became brighter. Her soft brown hair, round, reddish cheeks, and pale sky blue eyes were mesmerizing. She held out her hand and Carlos hesitated, but he eventually reached out and took her hand. As soon as he felt the soft touch of her hand, his hand trembled. Then, he realized that she smelled good. Carlos’s face began to turn red.

Amelia. Carlos repeated the name as it rolled over the tip of his tongue.

 

* * * 

Amelia’s fiancé said he was very busy, and Reinkel was the same. When the two who were close friends went out, only Amelia and Carlos remained in the castle. At that time, Amelia came up to Carlos without hesitation.

Carlos was very surprised by the visit and even asked himself if she was plotting something. Because there was always a ‘purpose’ when it came to giving and receiving favor from people in the Imperial Palace. But what will happen when a betrothed woman approaches the prince whose face has been hidden?

“You remind me of my younger brother.”

And how shocked he was to hear from Sir Reinkel that Amelia’s younger brother was a six-year-old child. To Amelia, he looked like a child. Carlos liked the kindness she gave him, but he wasn’t happy with this.

Amelia was cheerful and bright, and she had a knack for making people feel comfortable. Carlos was nervous in front of her, but before he knew it, he was able to reveal himself and be honest in front of her. Next to Amelia, he learned what he liked and didn’t like. And that he wasn’t the worst person.

Amelia was a good person. When she treated him in this way, he felt at ease. It was the first time he received such selfless favor. So while it was strange, he wanted it more. Meeting her was a joy and a light for Carlos.

“Elliot keeps telling me to lose weight.”

“Really? Mister Butler is also very strict. I think it would be okay for Amelia to eat more.”

“Really? Oh my God, Carl, thank you for already saying something to please a woman.”

Amelia laughed. Carlos also looked at her and smiled. But Carlos was inwardly perplexed. He was speaking the truth, not just ‘to please a woman’, but is she saying that it is a word that pleases her? In his view, Amelia had no flaws. What’s wrong with her being plump?

Elliott Butler was a greedy man. If he had a woman like Amelia as his wife, he should be content with her. Why must he interfere with her appearance? He cursed Elliot Butler in his mind.

Her fiancé, Elliott, wasn’t the kind of person Carlos would like. Elliot was moderately good to him like an older brother, but as he was a cowardly boy from the start, and he didn’t resemble Carlos’ older brother at all.

In the end, he didn’t let Carlos join in on what the older boys did. Perhaps Elliott doesn’t want to take care of the child. Of course, he didn’t hate it because he could be with Amelia, so he dismissed Reinkel who was concerned about him, but he hated Elliot so much anyway.

He hated Elliott for talking to Amelia for granted, and he did not want Elliott to take her by the wrist and lead her without consideration. He hated that her eyes seemed to be clouded subtly each time.

Even so, she was quite fond of her fiancé who she said was kind and gentle. In fact, she said that Elliot wasn’t bad looking, and she said that when they walked together, people would say they were a good match.

Why? Carlos didn’t like it. And it gradually became a cause of his depression.

One day, he was led out of the castle by Amelia’s hand. At first, Reinkel’s strictly urged not to go outside the castle, and he stopped her from going out alone, but Amelia didn’t seem to care. Rather, she gave an excuse that it would be dangerous to go out alone, so she eventually took Carlos out as well.

The summer sun was slightly stinging, and white clouds were floating in the pure blue sky. Amelia led his hand to a wide meadow.

“How is it? Do you feel good here?”

Amelia looked back at him and she smiled. At that moment, Carlos watched the scene without saying a word. As always, a smiling face, two pretty red cheeks, and eyes that resemble the clarity of the summer sky.

She smiled in the meadow, where there was nothing that bothered her eyes.

In an instant, Carlos’s heart sank. It was because he had unwittingly thought of something he should not have thought of.

“I brought you here because you seem downcast these days, Carl.”

He always thought Amelia was beautiful. Amelia, as he thought, was a very good person.

But it didn’t stop there. He realized that Amelia was a woman in his eyes. Amelia was in his heart.

He wished that she was his. He wished she would be with him. He was so eagerly waiting for it.

“I don’t know what’s making you depressed, but can you tell me what I can do to help you?”

Carlos looked at Amelia, feeling frustrated. Amelia was smiling softly, as always.

“Amelia.”

“Huh?”

“…Thank you.”

Amelia could not solve his troubles.

It had only been three weeks since he met Amelia. To fall in love in such a short moment, Carlos felt his heart was funny. But whenever he saw Amelia, Carlos would think that she was a person who was worth it. Even if he had only been with her for one day, he would have fallen for her.

But Amelia Laszlo had a fiancé. She even said she was going to get married next spring. Even if he had her in his heart, what would be the difference? After all, he was just a little brother to Amelia.

He lied about his age, so people thought of him as just thirteen. But he was actually fifteen, only three years younger than her. At fifteen, in the prime of his growth, he was on the short side and his face looked young too, so people simply believed he was thirteen.

But he was clearly growing up, and he was becoming a mature man too. Seeing her chest, white calves exposed between the skirts, and her insides, he would think of her every night, sighing and writhing in shame.

She once appeared in his dreams, and his body became one with her. Pure white flesh, voluptuous breasts. He indulged in her, and she looked only at Carlos and called his name with her lips reddened with excitement. When he woke up, his manhood didn’t sink, so he had to suffer quite a bit.

By her side, he watched every little detail of hers, and he noticed that Amelia’s expression strangely changed when she looked at Reinkel. Even when it was time to face Sir Reinkel, she would tidy up her messy hair or her clothes, even as she would just leave it as it was when she saw her fiancé.

“Amelia, do you like Brother?”

Amelia looked around her with her eyes wide open and she said,

“Carl, if you say that anywhere, you’ll be in trouble!”

“I made sure no one was here and asked. Amelia, do you like Brother?”

“W-Why do you think so?”

“Whenever you look at him, your eyes always seem to shine.”

“W-Were they? Ahh, that’s a big deal.”

Amelia’s cheeks turned red. She smiled awkwardly.

“Well, Sir Reinkel looks great to anyone. He’s the husband that every woman dreams of.”

Hearing those words, Carlos’s face darkened. He asked, clenching his fists.

“Then Amelia… Do you dream of having Brother as your husband?”

“To be honest, maybe…?”

Carlos realized at that moment that he had such a ferocious feeling within him. He wanted to run and kill Reinkel even now. If he had that kind of power, he would have done it. But then with a smile, Amelia said.

“But Carl, after all, the most sought after husband will be Carl.”

“What?”

“Carl is always delicate. Sir Reinkel was too reticent and insensitive. In time, Carl will grow taller like Sir Reinkel.”

“…….”

“And this is a secret, but your face is actually pretty, right? When you grow up, you will definitely look handsome. Actually, I think you’re a little more handsome than Sir Reinkel. So, of course, that means you’ll be better over time, right?”

“Really?”

“Then I wonder who will marry Carl. I’m going to envy her like crazy.”

As she whispered in his ear, his face brightened. As expected of Amelia. She always gently touched his heart.

“Amelia, if, just if…”

“Yes?”

“…No, nothing.”

‘What if… Can you wait for me to grow up? What if you weren’t engaged to that man, would you be with me when I grow up?’

Carlos wanted to ask that question. But he struggled to swallow the question.

 

· 

“It won’t be long. I will be back.”

Reinkel had to go to the capital. Reinkel asked Carlos to go with him, but Carlos insisted on staying at the castle because he wouldn’t be able to see Amelia if he returned to the capital.

Amelia said that once summer was over, she would leave again and return to her family’s estate. Carlos knew all too well that this was the last time he would be allowed to see her, so every moment was precious. So he was left alone without a guardian. In fact, even if Reinkel had stayed, the tragedy at that time would not have changed much.

At such a moment, the castle was occupied. When they heard the news of the invasion, the barbarians invaded, and those who guarded the castle were wiped out. Most of the low-ranking men were killed, while the women survived only because of deplorable reasons. Carlos experienced true horror.

 

· 

“He’s my younger brother!”

She shouted at Kshamil’s soldier who was about to kill Carlos and hugged him.

“Carl, we have to kiss here. If they find out that you’re the younger brother of an Imperial knight, I don’t know what terrible things you will face.”

At Amelia’s whisper, Carlos nodded his head. He was humiliated by the fact that an Imperial Family member had fallen into the hands of foreigners. He felt so pathetic about not being able to protect her.

Soon they were all dragged into the audience room. Upon reaching there, Carlos could feel the gaze of the barbarians toward Amelia. Everyone was staring at Amelia, drooling. Amelia also trembled as if she had noticed the gaze, and she held Carlos tightly.

“Please let us live. I will pay the price.”

At Eliot’s words, Durante patted his chin and looked at Amelia. The first time Amelia saw his lustful gaze, she felt terrified. Elliot’s words were not heard, and Durante came up to her and lifted her chin.

“Is the person in your arms your brother?”

“…….”

“All men except the Butlers must be killed here.”

“Save him. He’s still a child. Please.”

“My heart is weakened when a beautiful and young woman begs me earnestly.”

He looked at Amelia with pitying eyes. Amelia was relieved that at least that person was sympathetic.

“But rules are rules.”

“…….”

“If you want to save him, don’t you have to pay the right price?”

Durante’s hand caressed her neck. Then he slowly descended, stroking her chest with the back of his hand. His large hand gently caressed Amelia’s thigh.

Without experience, Amelia knew what he wanted.

“Yes. I will pay the price.”

Amelia had been taught that chastity was important to her, but she didn’t want to see Carl die.

“Amelia!”

Elliot looked at her with a betrayed expression on his face. Seeing that gaze, Amelia was disappointed with Elliot for the first time. She had to try not to resent Count Butler’s complacency for making this happen. She tried to think that this was to blame on the Kshamil who had invaded. But all Elliot did was beg in a humiliating way.

“To say that you will be held in the arms of another man in front of your fiancé, you are a daring girl. Aren’t we supposed to see if you’re a virgin or not?”

“Kyaak!”

Amelia screamed, startled by the sudden grab on her chest. At that moment, the hand that had covered Carlos’s mouth was released and Carlos shouted.

“You’d better kill me! Just kill me! You can’t be humiliated like this!”

Amelia looked surprised. Durante said with a smile.

“I’m sorry, kid. Your sister sacrificed herself to save you.”

 

· 

After crying for a long time, Amelia got up and walked to the room as if she had made up her mind. It was originally the room where Count Butler stayed, but now it is being used by Durante.

The men guarding Durante’s room looked at her with sinister eyes. Amelia bit her lip. She had to go in after a disgraceful examination and stand naked in front of him. Durante looked at her body as she lay on the bed.

Durante raised his body and beckoned to her as she slowly walked over to the bedside. He sat down and stroked her body as she stood by the bed.

“Uhk!”

Amelia bit her lip. Because his hand was rubbing her chest. He smiled as she stroked her thick nipples with his thumb.

“I like it. I like girls like you better than skinny girls. Doesn’t it look more slutty?”

It was such a terrible word. Amelia squeezed her eyes shut.

“Why? Are you ashamed of being humiliated? That your first time will be with a barbarian ramming into you?”

Her face flushed red at the blatant remark.

“I always wanted to trample the faces of the people of your country. And I wanted to crush a noble bitch like you.”

“Uht!”

He wrapped his arms around her waist and placed her on his lap. She trembled and looked up at his face. Think positively. This could save Karl’s life. Just having sex with a man. It’s saddening that the first person she’d do this with was not her husband, but when she thought about it, she didn’t even want to sleep with Elliot that much. It was the same with this man.

He looked down at Amelia and then smiled.

“If you don’t want to have children, eat this.”

“…….”

Durante held out the vial. Amelia was worried.

“Or have a savage’s child.”

She knew she had no choice at Durante’s snarky laugh. She drank the medicine from the bottle. Then her body began to heat up.

Was this how it felt when drunk? When he saw her gasping for breath, Durante smiled and stroked her body. Strangely enough, the terrible sensation felt sweet. And from her mouth, not a terrified sound, but a sweet moan began to flow. Her body was itchy. Her whole body trembled at the man’s hand.

“Th, this hnngg!”

She tried to shut her mouth, but there was no force in her body.

“Because I don’t want to do it with a corpse.”

“Ah, uhh…”

“Even a noble girl turns into a whore in an instant with that thing.”

“N, no.”

Amelia realized that the medicine she took wasn’t a contraceptive, it was a different drug.

Durante lifted Amelia and grabbed her thighs, spreading them apart. His thick fingers went towards her sensitive areas.

“Haahhnn!”

She didn’t like it. But a tingling sensation ran down her spine and, unknowingly, she arched her back.

“St, stop, stop!”

“I have to hear good things. Now I’m hearing something right.”

While fondling with her cl*toris, his hand slipped, and suddenly his thick fingers slid into her entrance.

“Ah!”

She felt a foreign feeling—it was bad, but it didn’t hurt. His fingers, digging into a place she had never touched before, began to make a squelching sound as he moved back and forth.

“Oh, uh! Uhh!”

That alone made her feel so strange that she had to hold onto the bed sheet and struggle to hold back her moans. She bit her lip and bit it again. But she gasped for breath and her mouth was dry. She felt her face heating up.

When she came to her senses, she was lying on her face, embracing his fingers. Gradually, a moan mixed with weeping began to leak out. Then his finger came out.

Was he done? Maybe this man had pity on her, maybe this was all he planned to do. The moment she lifted her body and looked back at him, she was astonished to see him naked.

“…I, I don’t want it!”

It was disgusting. It was the first time she had seen a man’s naked body, but the dark, red, swollen member looked horrifying. In the sex education class, she heard that part was supposed to go inside her.

The masculine size, incomparable to his fingers, terrified her. She felt fear and tried to run away, but she couldn’t. Rather, she was forced to lie down and had no choice but to tremble.

“Ah, ahh! Uhhhkk!”

She could feel his hot manhood rubbing against her wetness. Durante smiled and looked at her face.

“Aaahhhkk!”

She let out a scream of pain and pleasure. It was her first time with a man. The large pillar pierced her inner walls and moved back and forth. She was crushed by the large man. The bed creaked and shook.

“Keugh, huuuhk!”

He was making a beastly growling sound as though he was feeling something good. The lust he had for Amelia’s body was terribly disgusting. But even more disgusting was that it wasn’t just painful. The drugs made her most receptive to the man, and brought her pleasure in her first relationship. As she accepted the man, she felt an unfamiliar sensation and wept.

“Uhhhhng….”

“Geuaaht”

He shouted. At the same time, she too shook her body. Then something slid out between her legs. It was his droopy manhood. A thick fluid ran from her genitals to her buttocks. She knew something was coming out with it. Knowing that it was the man’s s*men, she covered her face and began to sob. Irrespective of her reaction, Durante laid down, hugging her waist as if satisfied.

“It was really great.”

“…….”

“Don’t worry, it’s a drug, but it’s also a contraceptive. You won’t have to worry of conceiving my child. It is such a drug.”

He stroked her hair quite affectionately. Tears fell from both of her eyes when her first time was over. The insides trembled as if the drug had not yet run out. She couldn’t go back to how she was before.

 

* * * 

“Uhh! Uhhnnngg!”

Carlos wanted to plug his ears so that he wouldn’t be able to hear those sounds. That trash-like man was holding Amelia with the door open on purpose. Everyone in the castle could hear her moans. It was bizarre, but Carlos knew the moan was mixed with her sobs.

All the survivors inside the castle were locked up in a large room, so Carlos saw the castle’s people’s reactions. In the beginning, the people sympathized with the poor girl. However, as they grew increasingly annoyed by her daily behavior, they began to loathe that she had sold her body to the enemy commander. Especially Elliot. He cussed Amelia, nervously messing around with his hair.

“Aahh, aahh!”

“I wish I hadn’t heard that sound! That wh*re, that b*tch!”

It was not her who should be blamed the most, but Durante, the one who led her into such a situation. After a little thought, it would show that it wasn’t what she wanted.

Shortly after she had slept with Durante, she entered the room. The people of the castle turned away from her. Returning with disheveled clothes, Amelia looked at Elliot still with unfocused eyes, she asked if he was okay, and finally, he turned away from her. After silently accepting the situation, she looked at Carlos.

“Are you okay?”

“Amelia, you’re really…”

She was the one who suffered the most, so why was she asking if he was okay?

“Thank God. I’m so glad you’re alive.”

As Elliot said, there’s no reason to do this for someone she wasn’t related to.

Everyone in the castle began to curse and reject Amelia. The men started chasing her, and every night the women who had been sadistically violated by the Kshamil’s soldiers cursed her, saying that she was given special treatment for being a nobility.

“Amelia, I’m sorry.”

“What are you sorry for? I’m fine.”

On Amelia’s face, the smile and freshness that had always been there in those days had long since disappeared. Carlos blamed himself. Why did he have to stay here? He should have rather followed Sir Reinkel up to the capital.

But in the midst of such despair, he knew only that Durante would not have left her alone anyway. Everyone knew this, yet it was easier to direct their resentment towards someone else. And Amelia was the victim.