I Don’t Want to Be Loved - Chapter 276

Chapter 276: Imagine a Life With You

And now, the letter was nearly reaching it’s end.

Rihannan, I imagined myself one day staring at you as you start to grow gentle wrinkles around your eyes and your silver hair turn to beautiful grey. You are beautiful now as well, but I’m sure that you’d look even more beautiful to me in that future.

Reading those words, Rihannan couldn’t help but let out a laughter. The man who never once told her that she is beautiful nor ever said he loves her is now writing such affection filled letter. On top of that, in the very last moment where they will never be able to meet again.

Even as I wished for the moments where I spend with you in this life would last forever, I still also wanted the twilight of our lives to come as soon as possible as well. At that period of time, we would have spent decades of our lives together, and my maddening worry about whether I would lose you again would be so long ago in the past that I wouldn’t need to think about it anymore. In all honesty, I looked forward to spending my life getting older together with you. Although now that wish of mine is now impossible.

Then Rihannan felt something undescribeable shoot up from the deepest of her heart. Her eyes became hot with tears welling up. She had to let out a sigh as she felt something heavy weigh down heavily down on her chest.

I hope that you will have a wonderful life, Rihannan. Even all that life you never got to have in the previous one as well.

And that was all. Below was completely blank with nothing else written. Rihannan pulled out the other thing that was left inside the envelope.

A feather was pulled out, which puffed up to it’s full size right away. Receiving the bright sunlight as it swayed in the sea wind, it’s golden colors shined brightly. The golden bird’s feather, which she had tossed away 6 years ago in this sea, was once again here in her hands as if fate was making fun of her.

“Sigh…”

With a subdued sob, a tear fell down onto the feather. Without even thinking of wiping away the endless amount of tears rolling down her cheeks, Rihannan cried for a long time.

***

After the conversation with Madam Sessly, Igor immediately rode his horse towards the port. This time, Basil wasn’t by his side and he was alone. The whole time he was riding, everything that had happened in the last 6 years ran through his mind.

It had been 3 years since he had lost her. After meeting Ataraxia in his dreams, he was given an opportunity to change the future, a priceless gift indeed, but he ended up not being able to see even a strand of her hair. Just like Ataraxia had said, since her wish was to never see him again, she had left to go to Arundel immediately without giving Igor even a chance to see the back of her far away into the sea.

Watching the boat go far into the sea and realizing that he will never be able to see her again, the emotion of despair and sadness crushed him heavily. If everything that had happened in the past repeated itself in this life, where he would experience losing her without being able to properly protect her even once yet again, he would end up once again taste the despair that he had felt before.

Back then, Igor stared at the feather held in his hand and resolved that he would be more stronger than he had ever been in the past. And once he has that power, he will use every method possible to make sure that she comes back to him. And this time he will never let her go from his hand.