I Won’t Accept Your Regrets - Chapter 14

Chapter 014

“Ha, what is love? Ellie, don’t be silly. Think about you being the empress and the child you gave birth to becoming the emperor.”

He looked at me as if he were looking at a child who didn’t even know the basics of calculation.

His love.

With that love, I sacrificed everything I had for you, and it was just love for you.

His words struck me like a dagger.

“It may be trivial to you, but that was everything to me.”

He couldn’t hide his tense face and looked at her. A crack appeared on Raymond’s hard face.

“Raymond, have you ever loved me for a moment?”

“….What?”

“You never loved me. Never.”

His eyes shook greatly.

“You said you didn’t love me. So please. Unless you want to make me your mother. If you’re not going to care for me like Lize, then divorce me.”

Raymond’s shaking black eyes were flashed with anger.

Worries and his mother, these two were his reasons for rebellion.

I knew better than anyone that his deep wounds should never be touched, but I couldn’t help it.

It’s cruel, but he and I will be able to cut off each other.

It was difficult to face his wounded eyes, but I did not pay any more attention.

He seemed shocked, and he soon exhaled a sigh.

“I’m… to you, you mean someone like the late emperor.”

“…… .”

As he stared at me with his eyes lowered, he said in a cold voice.

“Yes, let’s get a divorce. Like you said, we were wrong from the start.”

“Ah. And Ellie.”

When I raised my head, the cool black eyes were looking down at me.

“You’re right. I don’t love you. And I will never love you again. “

He left the dinner room, passing me with a cold breeze.

‘There will be nothing to love you about in the future.’

I knew he had nothing to love me for, but it broke my heart when it came out of his mouth.

I didn’t think there was anything left to grieve about him anymore, but was there?

I didn’t think there would be any lingering feelings left in the minute.

“….It’s over.”

Today is the last day, I will no longer be hurt, nor will it hurt my heart.

At the sound of the door opening, I quickly wiped away the tears with my hands. At the time of cleaning her face, Helan’s voice came.

“Your Majesty, The Empress.”

Helan couldn’t ask me if I was okay, Since she already had seen Raymond leaving the dining hall, She understood what had happened.

I saw Helen bowing her head.

When the Empress leaves the Imperial Palace, the position of Helen, who served the Empress, will be ambiguous…

I’ll ask my father to get Helan a position. I got up thinking.

“You’ll no longer have to go to the palace.”

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

The next day, Raymond sent a document to the temple to allow divorce from Ellie.

The news of our divorce spread quickly inside the Imperial Palace, and the sudden divorce of the Emperor and Empress made the Imperial Palace noisy.

The maids of the empress’ palace also heard the news, so in the morning they looked confused, helping my decorations, but no one spoke to me because of Helan’s sharp scolding.

“Your Majesty, how would you like to prepare your luncheon lightly today?”

I hated to see the turmoil of the imperial palace, and I was quietly standing in the room, and I looked up at Helan’s words.

“Yes, do it. But is Helan isn’t going to ask me anything?”

She was the head maid of the empress’ palace and had not asked any word from me about this situation.

I thought you’d ask me right away when you heard the news..

You must have been surprised, but Helan acted no different.

On the contrary, even other maids who are agitated by the news of divorce were scolded.

The Head Maid of the empress’ palace, was the second highest position among the courtesans who worked in the imperial family, after the emperor’s assistant.

As it was a high position, there were many things to enjoy, but if the Empress was served was wrong, They could not avoid her anger.

So she sent a letter to her father last night to discuss the problem with Helan.

Helan’s decision was made to provide appropriate compensation.

Helan seemed to be troubled by my question, and then moved her lips slowly after silence.

“…..So far, I’ve been thinking about taking the Empress’ side.”

“What do you mean?”

“It’s off topic, but… I wish Her Majesty had a happier life.”

“….What?”

I couldn’t hide my embarrassment at the moment. Helan looked down as if she was sorry for making me have an odd expression.

“I dare to think about it and ask. His Majesty,The Emperor never looked at Her Majesty. I have seen all of His Majesty, and what he does, so I can understand Her Majesty’s decision.”

And I thought she was just a maid who only worked for honor… .

I was surprised by her sincerity, so she could leave the palace now if I wanted to.

Even though her position as head maid of the palace will disappear, she will be welcomed by Her family if she is given a large amount of consolation money.

But when she heard me, Helan had a dark face, not a bright look.

Is it something you don’t like?

“What is Helan?”

“I would like to continue to serve the Empress. In the first place, I wanted to leave my family and become a maid. “

“Ah…”

I have never heard of her detailed circumstances, but her heavy expression made it seem that she had a lot of problems with her family.

it wasn’t hard to take her out if Helan wanted to.

I just have a secret that I can’t tell you, so I’m hesitating.

If I keep Helan on your side, She’ll know that you are pregnant.

But I will not raise this child as if it’s Raymond’s. I will never reveal forever that it has the blood of the royal family.

In any case, I was planning to leave the empire and give birth to my child and change my child’s status because I don’t want my child to be killed for the fight of the throne.

And that was very dangerous. It was such a risk.

Can I put Helan through such a thing?

I had no choice but to hesitate.

When I couldn’t say anything easily, Helan knelt down.

“Helan, why are you doing this all of a sudden, get up.”

“Your Majesty, I really have no place to go. I’m going to live as Empress’s maid all my life, so you can’t get rid of me.”

Helan’s desperation was beyond my control. I opened my mouth thinking that I should go with her.

“Okay. So get up. First… You’re going to go out of the Imperial Palace with me.”

“Thank you, Your Majesty.”

Only then did Helan give a brightened face.

“Your Empress, when are you going to leave the Imperial Palace?”

Until now, when the empress’ left the palace in the empire, it was after the order of enthronement had been issued or after hearing the answers of the temple.

But the Empress’ weren’t trying to leave the Imperial Palace first, they were kicked out… They waited until the emperor’s orders fell.

They and I were in different circumstances. I said while picking something from a drawer.

“If His Majesty agrees to this letter, you will leave the Imperial Palace tomorrow.”

“So right away tomorrow? So what do you need to prepare…”

She shook her head as she looked at the talking Helan with her eyes wide open.

“I will not be taking anything out.”

“Are you throwing away all of your jewelry and His Majesty’s things?”

“Yeah. They were all gifted to me when I was married to His Majesty, so I don’t want to take anything.”

Without a bit of regret, I will throw away everything related to him.

Helan quietly accepted the letter from my firm will.

“Your Majesty, shall I send the letter to the Sun Palace now?”

“You’re right.”

“Yes, Your Majesty.”

Helan quickly left the room and recalled that there was a place to stop before leaving the Imperial Palace.

[If there is nothing more to do with the divorce issue, I will leave the Imperial Palace tomorrow.]

Raymond’s face solidified after checking the short text in the letter.

Let’s get divorced, it was yesterday that I told you.

He was so angry at her for mentioning the emperor who he killed by his own hands that he sent the documents impulsively to the temple, but he never meant it.

But it seems like you’ve been waiting to send this letter.

Ellie Croft, who had been watching him for many years, was incredibly fast on wanting to divorce him.

It would have been easier to comprehend that someone else wrote this letter.

However, the handwriting in the correspondence must have been Ellie’s.

Raymond put the letter on his desk as if he were throwing it.

End Of Chapter 014