If The Moon Won’t Hold You - Chapter 17-2

New Year’s Eve had passed, and a new year had been ushered in.

For the first time, Cen Ning did not want the New Year to come, because it meant that Yan Xingzhi had to leave again.

But no matter how much she didn’t want it to come, time would still pass.

On the third day of the Lunar New Year, another group of guests came to the Yan residence. At that time, Cen Ning was on the balcony of the small building, and when she looked down, she saw Yan Xingzhi going out to greet people personally.

Those people were probably in their 50s or 60s, but like Yan Guofeng, they were tall and upright, and they looked very energetic.

She thought that these people were probably from military backgrounds.

Everything was fine at first, but after more than half an hour, she suddenly saw those people coming out. One of them was talking anxiously but was later pulled into the car by the others.

Cen Ning was a little puzzled. Logically, they should have stayed for dinner, so why did they just leave?

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The sudden voice made Yan Xingzhi glance sideways, his eyes deepened, and he turned his head back in silence.

The Yan Xingzhi that Cen Ning had always seen was a person that everyone valued.

Every elder in the family was proud of him, and when Yan Guofeng would recall that he had such a grandson, his face would be full of pride. Cen Ning really didn’t know what could make Yan Guofeng beat up his adult grandson like that.

“Grandpa, what are you doing!” Cen Ning’s head was buzzing, and she rushed forward without thinking about anything. She went in front of Yan Xingzhi and opened her arms to protect him subconsciously.

Yan Xingzhi paused slightly and raised his eyes to look at the young girl who had suddenly rushed in front of him.

Yan Guofeng gritted his teeth: “Ningning, get out of the way, I will teach this brat a good lesson!”

Cen Ning: “Grandpa, no matter what, you shouldn’t hit him…”

“This is considered light punishment! I want to ask him if he even takes me seriously!”

Cen Ning didn’t know what was going on, so after hearing his words, she turned and looked at Yan Xingzhi with a worried look. Yan Xingzhi’s eyes collided with hers, and he pulled her back with a solemn expression.

“Stand to the side.”

Cen Ning: “But…”

“Be obedient.”

“…”

Seeing this, Xu Wanying also said: “Dad, don’t be so angry, if there is something to talk about, then let’s talk about it calmly. Xingzhi is an adult now, hitting him like this doesn’t look good—”

“You all don’t talk! Yes, he has grown up, so he can decide everything by himself, even joining the special forces privately without saying a word!” Yan Guofeng said solemnly, “If it wasn’t for your uncle Jiang who mentioned it today, you planning to keep on hiding it from me!”

Yan Xingzhi: “No.”

“Then you were deliberately delaying it! You were waiting until it was irreversible and then you would tell me, right!” 

“Yes.”

“Oh! You are frank, Yan Xingzhi. I asked you to enter the army and to go to  military school, not to let you die!”

“Then why did you ask me to enter the army? If it’s not for defending the family and the country, if it’s not about life and death, that’s what is it for?” Yan Xingzhi’s eyes narrowed slightly, and the corners of his slightly raised lips looked especially merciless, “Is it just for the sake of a false name, just to walk up to a position where you can be looked up to by others?”

“You!”

“By promising the country with one’s body, anything can be done.” He pursed his lips and said in a low voice, “You told me this when I was a child. Since you have instilled this kind of thought in me since I was a child, don’t stop me now.”

… …

Yan Guofeng called Yan Xingzhi to come to his study alone later.

The living room was quiet, Yan Su sat on the sofa, and Xu Wanying comforted him kindly.

“Xingzhi has grown up. He has his own ideas, so let’s not stop him.”

“You didn’t give birth to him, of course you don’t care about his life or death!”

“Yan Su, what do you mean by that!” Xu Wanying was stunned, her face turned pale, “You think I’m saying this because I want him to die?”

“I……”

“I have never done anything against my conscience since I have married into the Yan family, how could you, you think of me like this!”

“Wanying—”

Xu Wanying’s eyes were red, and she ran upstairs angrily. Yan Su looked a little awkward. He must have spoken without thinking just now, and after sitting on the sofa for a while, he went upstairs to apologize to Xu Wanying.

“Aunt Chen.” Cen Ning called softly, looking at the empty living room.

Aunt Chen sighed and replied, “Ningning, you go back first, I’ll watch.”

Cen Ning didn’t move: “Aunt Chen, why is everyone so angry, if brother goes to…the special forces, what does it mean? Does it mean he’s going to die?”

“Ah, I don’t know much, but I know that the special forces are not as good as the general army. They are elusive and their missions are very dangerous. Old Master did it himself when he was young, so he knows that some matters can’t be controlled.” Aunt Chen shook her head and said, “Actually, entering the special forces is of course an honor. Only the best soldiers can go. It’s just that… Xingzhi is also the eldest grandson. So many expectations have been put onto him, how could his family want him to go through such hardship, putting his life on the line?.”

Cen Ning was a little flustered: “But since he’s already like this, doesn’t it mean that it is irreversible?”

“He has always been independent in his actions, and with his temperament, he will not turn back.”

Cen Ning didn’t speak. She remembered when he was sweating desperately on the training ground as if he didn’t care about his life, and his rigorous attitude when reading those military books… at that time, his eyes were firm and determined.

Yeah, he was not the kind of person who turned back easily.

If he was such a person, he would not be Yan Xingzhi.

The soundproofing of the study was very good, Cen Ning couldn’t hear anything when she was standing outside in the living room. She urgently wanted to know even a little something and was worried that Yan Guofeng would continue being ruthless. So after thinking about it, she pretended to go back to the small building, but actually sneakily went to the wall of the study outside. Fortunately, the window of the study was not closed tightly.

In the study, one sat, one stood.

“You have to choose this path?”

“Yes, I am sure I want to choose this path.”

“You have a lot to learn in military school! Your path in the future is clear. I don’t agree with you taking such a risk!”

“This isn’t an adventure, it’s an experience.” Yan Xingzhi lowered his eyes, but it didn’t hide his sharpness. “That’s what I want, this is it.”

“You think you can do whatever you want! Do you not see who you are?! I don’t want you to take the risk, you are not allowed to go.”

“Grandpa!” Yan Xingzhi said solemnly, “I have received your cultivation and training since I was a child. I didn’t do it just to be pretentious. When can you stop deciding and controlling my life, I know what I want to do.”

“I control you, how do I control you!”

“Are the orders you gave me not enough? What to do in the future, which school to go to, which university to go to, which army to enter, and even who I will marry in the future, aren’t your arrangements enough?”

The cold wind was bleak, and standing outdoors without a coat in this season could make someone cold to the core.

Cen Ning, who was outside the window clasped her arms, and was stunned when she heard “who to marry”.

Yan Guofeng: “What do you mean by this? All those things I did for you, which one wasn’t for your own good. Who to marry, what’s wrong with that sweet child Ningning? A soldier should keep solemn promises, this is what I promised the Cen family!”

“You also know that it is your promise, so why should you let me keep it.” Yan Xingzhi’s words were extremely cold, and his words were very rude, “What I’m unwilling to do, no one can force me to do it.”

There were no smooth and steady paths in the world, and people would always encounter some unexpected obstacles and accidents when following their paths.

For the Yan family, Yan Xingzhi’s choice was an accident. For Yan Xingzhi, Cen Ning who was eavesdropping outside the window was an accident. For Cen Ning, the biggest accident in her life was when she walked into the Yan residence at the age of thirteen and met Yan Xingzhi.

That year, there was a lot of wind and snow.

When Cen Ning recalled it a few years later, what she remembered was not only the sound of the word “unwilling”, but also the temperature of that day, the snow that day, and the sudden and unfamiliar pain after the heart was torn open that day. …

The author has something to say: Saying obscene things out of pleasure and then ends up chasing the wife to the crematorium. (TLN: TYan Xingzhi said that he was “unwilling” to marry Cen Ning, so now Cen Ning is heartbroken, and he will have to ‘chase’

 her back)

“A Small Scene Years Later”

Yan Xingzhi: When I said unwilling, I meant the military road planned by grandpa, not you…

Cen Ning: I’m not listening, I’m not listening!