Lonely Me and the Lonely Caring Goddess

TL: Cheetah

ED: Ryuubii

“Student President, I need to borrow the reference room.”

Senpai told the Student President in a tone that won’t take no for an answer.

“O-Okay.”

There shouldn’t be a problem using the reference room, but the Student President, feeling the pressure, replied nervously.

“Takanashi-san, please tell me what’s happening.”

After saying this, Senpai pulled my arm away, but after a momentary delay, she switched from her hold to my hand.

Thus, I was taken to the reference room like a child led by her hand.

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As soon as the door closed, we proceeded to the center of the room. Senpai turned around and looked me directly in the eye.

What should I do…?

I don’t want to lie to Senpai, but it’s a complex topic.

This won’t be difficult if it’s just about my relationship with friends. But there is also a part that involves Natsumi-senpai, and what’s more, it’s about romance.

I don’t think it’s something I can speak about quickly.

There are other people involved besides me… would they be okay if I told her?

“Takanashi-san, would you be troubled if you told me what’s going on?”

How…?!

“Fufu… It’s not something difficult to guess. Since you came here, you’ve been looking more troubled than before, so I thought perhaps that was the case.”

I see.

Though, how should I explain it?

“I said earlier that I would listen to what that trouble is, but I don’t want to force you. In the first place, it’s difficult to tell someone everything. If it can be said without any trouble, I’m sure Takanashi-san would have already said it.”

It’s a relief that Senpai understands.

For now, I’ll keep quiet about what happened.

However, I will be as honest as I can in the future. I don’t want to hide anything from Senpai, who went out of her way for me.

“Takanashi-san, I am always willing to listen, so please let me know when you can talk.”

“Senpai, there are other people involved as well. So, I’m sorry I can’t tell you…”

First of all, I’ll say to the extent that I can.

“I understand. Then, I won’t pry anymore… but.”

She grasped my right hand and wrapped it with both of her hands.

“If Takanashi-san is really in trouble and you still won’t talk…”

Senpai’s smile really is lovely.

I love it very much.

“You’ll be punished again, okay?”

Senpai said with a mischievous look.

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I don’t know what to say and how to respond.

With just a word, Takanashi-kun left.

Was that his real intent?

It was a relief to hear that he accepted my selfishness.

I tried to be as unpretentious as possible. I wonder what Takanashi thought of it?

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I’m not bragging or saying I’m proud of it, but the fact is… girls flock to me.

I also have a fan club, though I didn’t know when it started.

They even prepare banners for me at tennis matches.

Of course, I am happy that they are supporting me.

But that’s in exchange for the boys’ scrutiny.

I’m pretty sure I’ve never met anyone I could truly consider a friend.

Those who approach me don’t even try to hide their ulterior motives.

To me, It’s common for someone I just met to ask me a favor and introduce them to a girl.

I can’t even count the guys who posed as friends just to get close to the girl they wanted.

In the end, the feelings around me are only jealousy, envy, and friends with hidden ulterior motives.

Besides… the fan club likes me for my appearance. They don’t see me for who I am.

But… I found a person I like.

Natsumi-senpai, who sees me only as an ordinary junior.

It’s the first time for me to have a woman be angry with me.

That piqued my interest in her.

And before I realized it, I fell in love with her.

By the way, what I felt towards Satsukawa-senpai is different.

Besides, she is not interested in boys, me included.

But to think that Satsukawa has a boyfriend?

I’ve heard rumors, but I couldn’t believe it until I saw them with my own eyes.

The boy who came with Satsukawa to support Natsumi was probably her boyfriend.

Honestly, he looked like a plain, unremarkable, ordinary guy. Still, if you watched him, you could see that Satsukawa-senpai treats him favorably.

But what surprised me was Natsumi-senpai’s reaction.

He is her best friend’s lover, so I could imagine they had a certain degree of friendship.

But the scene unfolding in front of me was definitely him being close with Natsumi-senpai.

Is this what jealousy feels like?

I guess it is.

This is the first time I’ve ever been jealous of someone.

He was present too at the practice match.

He has a beautiful girlfriend like Satsukawa-senpai and a close friend like Natsumi-senpai.

He would not be interested in me since he was in such a desirable position.

But for some reason, as was the case with Natsumi-senpai and Satsukawa-senpai, I was interested in him, contrary to what people think of me.

In such a situation, the envy and jealousy of those around him are enormous. He’s in the spotlight now, and I can see the boys glaring at him.

There are probably a lot of boys with ulterior motives coming to him.

It was as if I was looking at myself, what he was feeling. Knowing what he was feeling, I felt close to him. I’m sure he can understand my feelings too.

And with those two by his side, I’m sure he wouldn’t be attracted to other girls.

In other words, he might be able to become my true friend without strings attached.

For the first time, I found a boy who could be a true friend.

The problem is… when he finds out what I feel about Natsumi-senpai. There is a high possibility, no, it’s inevitable, that he will misunderstand that I approached him for that purpose.

And that’s what bothers me the most.