May I Kill You, Your Majesty? - Chapter 3

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“Yes, it’s a dream. No, It was just a silly nightmare.”

After her first regression, Earendel struggled to deny the truth.

I thought about throwing away the ring, but I decided not to. The reason was simple.

It’s because I feel uncomfortable. I probably would because… wasn’t it right after the old woman gave me this ring, that all of the misfortunes in my life started coming?

If all those things weren’t dreams and If that truly happened…

Then I will die again.

If the ring was the reason why I came back, then I should probably keep it. In that way, I’ll be able to come back to life.

Regardless of all that, Earendel sincerely begged. She hoped that all of those were just a dream. So that there will be no reason for Castian to rebel in this life.

Of course, it was all just a wasteful thought.

Because the ending of my second life was also an execution.

[I hope you like my present.]

And then I went back again.

The old woman just uttered those words and disappeared again.

‘Castian, you damn prince!’

For a few days, Earendel failed to think that those were just dreams but she didn’t have any choice but to accept them. Because of the fact that she came back to life.

Also, She thinks that the reason why she’s coming back to life was because of this ring.

In other words, it could also mean that without this ring, there’s a possibility that she might not come back anymore!

Since then, Earendel has protected the ring as if it were her own life.

“This time I will run away before Castian rebels. I have a feeling that it will work.”

She decided to run away after her first regression.

It was a good plan when you look at it at first glance.

But Castian’s treason was exactly a month after Earendel bought the ring.

As soon as Earendel came back to her senses, she immediately packed her things and ran away that night.

But of course fate doesn’t agree with her, so she died again.

Whether she was abused or respected, Earendel still belonged to the Ducal family, and the Duke of Bellerophon was a great supporter of the Crown Prince.

In addition, it’s only a month before the rebellion takes place. What she didn’t know was that a cautious Castian has always been watching all the noble families.

Around that time, Castian’s soldiers would immediately kill the aristocrats who had tried to cross the border. There was a simple reason behind it.

He ordered the soldiers to kill any noble who would attempt to cross the border because it would hinder his plans of rebellion.

And Earendel was one of those people who have tried to cross the border and have unfairly died.

But she naturally didn’t give up. In fact, it only raised her spirits more.

Now that I’ve come back to life, I need to live.

Earendel tried to escape by any means possible, she was so close to succeed after she came back.

But of course, time and time again she failed one try after the other.

She once tried to inform the palace about the planned rebellion, but it didn’t work either. She was kicked out because they thought she was crazy.

She also tried to talk to the Duke who supported the crown prince the most, but he didn’t even listen.

“You’re talking nonsense. How dare Castian rebel when the Empress is alive and healthy.”

So Earendel completely failed to survive.

And it was exactly around the fourth regression that Earendel definitely began to get tired.

[I hope you like my present.]

“Ahhhh! What the hell am I supposed to do. Castian, you son of a bitch!”

As soon as she returned, Earendel screamed like a madman.

It was the first time in her life that she has cursed a person so badly when she herself didn’t even know his face.

If he was in front of me, I could strangle him to death.

Earendel thought to herself. She suffered from anxiety for about a week and was seized with an ominous and definite premonition that she would continue to die.

“I need to find another way.”

After a week or two, I finally have a good plan…

“Castian… I’ll try to meet him.”

And if possible…

I’ll try to get closer!

And I-I’ll seduce him!

It was.

“W-well… I’m not a bad person. It’s not like there’s no possibility at all… that’s…. right.”

I came up with it, but I didn’t know if it was a proper method. So, I felt awkward and embarrassed.

…There is a saying that once you know your enemy and know yourself, you can win the war. Earendel first summarized what she knew about Castian.

Castian de Perto. Prince of the Empire.

Although he is the first son, his half-brother, Eupiter de Perto became the Crown Prince.

“Castian was a concubine’s son, and Eupiter was the Empress son…”

According to people, Castian disappeared as soon as he was born. And then he came back to the palace when he was 14 years old?

Everyone talked about that. Perhaps concubine Dalia sent her son away by herself to avoid the scheme of Judice, Eupiter’s mother and the empress.

Well, if Castian had grown up in the Imperial Palace, the Empress would have done her part.

This was purely because of his hair color.

There was an unusual custom in the Trapegium Empire.

The qualification to become an emperor was determined by how much sacred power you have, and the stronger your sacred power is the darker your hair color would become.

In simple terms, the person who will take the throne must have the blackest hair color.

Black hair was not an uncommon color, but the story will be different if you are the child of the emperor.

In fact, there was only one with black hair, no matter how many children he has. In addition, there has never been a time where a non-black-haired man has become the emperor.

And Castian had black hair.

Eupiter also had black hair.

Two sons qualified to be emperors. It was the first time since the start of this country.

So the bloodshed surrounding the imperial throne was probably planned from the moment they were born.

Anyways, Castian came back like that, and everyone was worried because of that.

“That’s all I know.”

The regression was repeated, but the Duke’s illegitimate child could not approach the imperial palace, nor could she have known information about the prince.

To Earendel, Castian was like a man with a shield.

Oh, but there’s only one thing.

I want to know something about him.

“I heard his face is very handsome…”

Is that real?

Earendel tilted her head while imagining the prince that she never met.

What’s the point of being handsome? When he’s the one who killed many people and drove me away, killing me again and again and again.

“But you still need to look good. You must.”

In order to survive I’ll have to be beautiful, so that I can seduce the Prince. Earendel muttered with a face full of spirit.

Now the question was how to meet Castian.

In fact, it wasn’t completely impossible. Castian was actively engaged in social activities before he rebelled. Of course, my intention was to examine the aristocracy without revealing my plans.

It wasn’t that bad for me anyway. It was an opportunity.

In addition, the children of Bellerophon, who did not have any mixed blood like Earendel, were so sharp to socialize. They also attend a meeting of noble children once a week.

…let’s do this!

Of course they wouldn’t be happy if I offered to accompany them, but I’ve already died several times. Such a thing was not a problem for a person who wants to survive.

The meeting date is in two days.

And the meeting place was to Count Lissian.

***

The meeting time was noon.

And 30 minutes before noon, an old carriage slowly stood in front of the Count’s territory.

It was Earendel who got off.

“…..”

Earendel looked around. Her eyes are full of nervousness.

This was my plan. If I come alone, they might won’t let me in. Because I’m not invited. It was clear that even if I asked them to take me, it’s not going to work.

This was the only way Earendel could choose.

I’ll wait in the front, then somehow join them when Lilent and Mortis appear.

“It’s alright. If it doesn’t work…. I can just get over it.”

….or beat Mortis and threaten him.

Mortis is small and weak, so I thought I could win if I fought him.

Anyway, Earendel even bought the horseman to get here. I’ll die again if I miss this gathering. I can’t miss this opportunity.

Earendel took a deep breath and strengthened her will with a determined face.

And it was almost noon when Lilent and Mortis arrived.

At that time, Earendel jumped from an old carriage.

Then, she recklessly blocked the colorful carriage where her half brother and sister were riding.

“Kyaaaa!”

I heard Lilent’s surprised scream when the carriage suddenly stopped. Earendel didn’t miss the gap and suddenly opened the carriage door.

“Earendel, what are you doing here?”

Mortis stared at Earendel with a look of embarrassment and said, What am I doing here? I’m here because I was trying to live. Earendel rode into the carriage and ignored Mortis’ words.

“Are you following us?”

“You…”

“Don’t you dare sit next to me.”

Lilent’s eyes were looking at Earendel and was squeezing her body next to Earendel, but her eyes were full of disgust.

“Sister, brother. I want to go to the meeting too.”

Earendel gives her best to have a pitiful look on her face while saying that.

“Please take me with you. I’ll never bother the both of you.”

“That doesn’t make any sense, right?

Lilent hit me. But that’s not what matters now. Earendel now looked out the window without answering back.

“Earendel!”

Lilent never heard an answer, so she pushed Earendel with all her strength.

This damn girl. She’s so strong.

Lilent was always like this anyways. She pretends to be precious but works out secretly in the back.

“Mortis, stop the wagon right now. We’ll be laughed at when we come with Earendel.”

….It’s over if I get kicked out of here. Mortis is the only hope for Earendel.

“I’ll tell my father everything, Earendel! You tried to humiliate us in this situation!”

“It’s never gonna happen! I’ll just go and stay still! So just once….”

Earendel begged like a slave.

It didn’t work as she expected.

Mortis kicked the running carriage door with his feet and pulled Earendel toward him. It seemed like he was going to throw her away.

“Get out of here, you parasite girl.”

Mortis was about to throw Earendel out of the carriage.

“…brother, do you know what it feels like to be decapitated?”

Earendel stared at him as if she wanted to kill him and pursed her lips.

“It’s a lot worse than you thought. You can feel the skin cracking, muscle tearing, and bone breaking very vividly.”

“…What?”

“It’s much better to stand or sit when they cut your throat. But that’s not the worst part of it. The worst is the execution.”

“….”

“You will never know when the blade will fall. Right? Is it in a few seconds or in a  few minutes. You will never know when it’s going to be over.”

Earendel said that while shrugging her shoulders.

“It’s crazy, how your head rolls like a ball and falls in front of the crowd. They’ll just kick it like a ball, as if it was nothing. It’s truly unfair to die like that, it’s just a joke for them. “

“What nonsense is this girl talking about?!”

Mortis, who had heard enough, shouted back.

“Your head rolls like a ball? Just say that ridiculous story in front of your mother’s grave!”

“A ridiculous story?”

Erendel laughed and gritted her teeth.

“…Your head will become like that, brother.”

(Wendy : For those who didn’t know. Mortis is a part of Bellerophon and the Bellerophon family will be executed because they’re siding with the Empress instead of the Prince.)

Mortis’ face hardened after hearing that. Earendel even felt a strange joy after seeing that stupid look on his face.

Well, I’m not lying. That’s what Mortis’ real future is.

Earendel slowly patted Mortis on the back of his head.

“You always said it, didn’t you? The back of their head popped out like an apple. It must be pretty.”

“That… what do you mean by that….?”

“I thought it was nonsense, but it was real. Like a ball. After the execution, it will roll in front of the people.”

A small white hand slowly came down to Mortis’ neck.

And Earendel grabbed it. Then she threateningly said.

“Leave me alone. Just sit back and see what I can do!”

“Ha….”

Lilent laugh as if Earendel  was absurd. It is because she never seen Earendel do that before, she never responded to the slightest disregard and ridicule to her.

“Is it so hard to have a conversation and understand it?! Hmm!”

Mortis didn’t answer me. He just looked down at me with an indescribable look.

It’s enough. Earendel whined and let go of Mortis’ neck.

At the same time…

I was pushed in by the carriage with its opened door.

“Ahhhh!”

Earendel was pushed away without a single resistance and was stuck on the floor.

“That crazy little girl. She must have lost her mind.”

The carriage quickly disappears from her sight as Mortis’ swear.

“….Those damn kites.”

Earendel fired up while sitting on the ground.

I was still lucky that the carriage was not running fast. My knees and ankles were a little sore, but….

“But where am I….?”

Anyway, I was certain that they did that on purpose, but I don’t know where I was.

“Now. Where am I? Where did the carriage go?”

Earendel decided to think so hard. I made up my mind. Even if I’m lost, I’ll just let my damn brother and sister die. Sneak, sneak.

“But where should I go….?”

Earendel was looking around and saw a mansion, so she walked towards it. It looks… but I don’t know how to go back.

I thought I would trip on the road again, so It’s better if we’d go there while walking.

Nonetheless, I felt like this all happened to me because of that damn prince. Earendel was stomping her feets hardly while walking and took a deep breath.

It was near that they didn’t think about getting closer to the mansion by walking.

Soon after, Earendel realized that she was completely lost.

“What the hell….”

A cursing word popped out her mouth.

There was no one to hear it anyway, because it’s a place where few people come by….

I think I should not run into anyone as much as possible, but now I had to ask a dog passing by for directions.

It was a long time after Earendel discovered something while walking nervously.

“…Huh?”

What I could see from far away was definitely a horse. That’s a very expensive and well-bred horse.

The horse was tied under a big tree. Earendel was agonized for a while and concluded that there was no one here after wandering around.

Earendel began to approach the tree.

And when I reached the tree…

I saw a strange man.

The man was asleep lying under the tree.

‘I’m sure he’s an aristocrat…’

The meeting must have started by now, but what is he doing here without going inside?

But I have to wake him up and ask him for directions. After thinking a while, Earendel decided to approach the man.

Earendel had fallen when she took a two step forward…

On the man’s stomach.

“Kyaaaa!”

“….Ugh.”

The man’s groans and Earendel’s screams were linked together.

Soon, the man looked down at Earendel with a ridiculous look.

“…..”

“I-I’m so sorry….”

Earendel got up and cried out.

It was because the man suddenly took the sword.

“Who are you?”

“…..”

“Tell me, if you don’t want to die.”

The man asked while pointing a sharp sword at Earendel’s neck.