Please Give Me the Pacifier - Chapter 5

I couldn’t reach it.

It was a fact that I realized the moment I struggled to get my butt off of the ground and stood up.

With that height and this short arm, even if I tried for quite a long time I wouldn’t be able to touch the water let alone wash my pacifier.

‘No, if my luck is good…’

I could probably use magic to soak my pacifier then take it out.

I thought that I would want to at least try and attempt it but my body did not move at all.

The reason was simple.

Because I couldn’t concentrate while I was standing up.

I barely got up so I did not want to lie down on the floor and use magic in that embarrassing posture again.

‘I’m definitely going to be embarrassed because it’s the middle of the day.’

No matter how I tried to deny it, it was still a bit embarrassing to lie down and do magic in that posture.

I ended up biting it off of my hand after struggling desperately to clean it.

My shaking and trembling legs were pathetic.

I guess I enjoyed my meals very much that I ended up having chubby arms and legs. But maybe it was because they were chubby that it was hard for me to see a drop of water, let alone touch it.

I could only hear the gurgling sound of the water.

“Ashwi!”

Shit! It’s driving me nuts!

Why was my voice this stupid!

I was about to stomp my feet but when I saw my bare feet, weak legs and the hard ground the thought completely disappeared from my mind.

“Ehhuu.”

I sighed and dropped myself down on the ground with the pacifier in my mouth.

I’m exhausted in so many ways.

I turned my head around as I sucked on my pacifier with a chup, chup.

I felt like someone was eyeing me from somewhere. When I turned my head I saw a bunch of people huddled around watching this place.

‘…I’m so glad I didn’t use magic.’

If I really did magic in that kind of position while I was lying down, I would definitely be a laughing stock.

I slowly breathed a sigh of relief. As I watched the figures closely I could faintly see the outline of those people.

That…

‘They are Deshar Crown and Sharendt Crown.’

Fortunately they don’t look much different from when I last saw them.

Which meant that there was a high probability that not much time had passed yet since I died.

When I thought about the past, I was able to use the lower magic circle when I was around 5~6 years old.

Plus, I have already experienced it once so I should learn it faster this time, however I might not yet be strong enough to use intermediate magic circles.

If I ever got out of here then it wouldn’t hurt to make a living alone.

Once I could roughly use my magic then I would make food and mana stones and sell them. Then I would be able to copy the information here earlier, put it in a separate space then jet out of here cleanly.

Then I would go back to Cillophia and clean those traitors away. Once I have swept the Empire clean of them then I would take back my position as the Magic Tower’s Tower Master.

‘Sharendt Crown is a bit troublesome.’

He has a good head on his shoulders and was capable of judging the situations clearly.

He was someone who knew how to find the gap and deal with magic. I heard that he was in his mid-thirties…

‘I met him first when I was 16.’

It wasn’t a joke when you say that he ignored people. In addition, he did not even put commoners in his eyes. It felt like I was dealing with a conceited man who has both dignity and lineage.

He probably graded people based on his own system and only interacted with people above a certain level.

‘Deshar Crown……’

Compared to Sharendt who was a bit troublesome, he was someone who was harder to deal with.

I met him as a representative of Cillophia before, however I was often pushed back by his words. Maybe it was because I was young and lacking in experience.

Since Cillophia was a newly established kingdom, it needed to have diplomatic relationships in many different ways.

And frankly speaking, it was truly difficult for Cillophia to establish a diplomatic relationship with the Heiron Empire.

It was possible to produce plenty of goods with Cillophia’s fertile land and thriving manpower. But the fertile land only came to be because of magical powers. It was definitely possible to get plenty of native plants and animals however it was necessary to have a special environment for it.

So it wasn’t really necessary for us to lose in our exchange with them.

However, Cillophia was only recently established by the people who they usually cursed as ‘witches.’ So I tried to not show any anger and just tried to stabilize our situation.

The first to reach out to us was Heiron Empire.

Even if they were the ones to reach out a helping hand, Cillophia shouldn’t be in a situation where they would be stuck in a very desperate situation. So I tried to put off the negotiations desperately. However, everytime I did so I was always pushed back by Sharendt Crown’s words and by Deshar Crown’s momentum.

‘It looked like everything I heard from them is just right.’

That was why everytime it happened I had to think for a long time before I could give them my answer.

In that way, I could prepare myself in dealing with them. Then I had to think about the next diplomatic meeting again and again.

It was the only way that I could make up for my lack of experience. It was after all my precious country that I had to protect.

I slowly lowered my gaze.

‘Huhu, this time I will definitely win.’

I believe no one will be crazy enough in their family to steal the military’s classified documents.

Just thinking about it made me feel better.

I was smiling slyly when I spotted a maid with a scary look in her eyes to the side.

‘T, those… cowardly bastards!’

It was quite obvious that those Crown bastards sent her.

I hurriedly crouched on all fours and started to move my limbs.

‘Let’s run away.’

I wasn’t able to do it here so I have to go to the pond next time to wash my pacifier.

‘It’s filthy!’

If I kept on chewing on this then I would definitely get sick!

The only magic I could use as of now is gravitational magic. And it was a magic that I could barely use. I have to focus all of my attention on it and I even needed to make an embarrassing pose just so I could execute it.

“Abuuu!”

And this strange noise always had to come out of my mouth.

I made fun of my arms and legs but even if they hurt I couldn’t get caught.

I definitely would not continue to suck on this dirty pacifier!

“W, wait! Stop right there!”

Why should I stop if you said so? Is that maid stupid?

I gave a mean smile as I worked my arms and legs harder.

However, my body suddenly started to float. My face twisted in annoyance as soon as I realized my body was hovering above ground.

‘Ah…’

I’m a hundred day old child. No matter how fast I ran, the maid would catch up to me in a matter of steps.

I looked down as my body started trembling.

Ah, shit. I’m dying of shame.

‘Hella’s dead.’

My god…!

The maid carried me sideways and quickly pushed me to the bed.

My god…!

The maid sighed deeply. She glared at me as she brought a heavy blanket and covered me with it. She placed it as if to keep me from moving.

And sure enough, the maid pressed me hard when I struggled.

My god…!

‘I can’t believe this shit is treating me like this!’

“How the hell did you get out of here. Did you break it? I got in trouble because the young master called me out! They should have just abandoned this half-blood!”

She looked as if she was brimming with resentment. Did I come out of a third-rate novel?

I was so pathetic that I even forgot to wash my pacifier and just looked around the room.

I probably knew what my face looked like right now.

I probably looked like an idiot who looked so jealous and inferior. Someone who couldn’t control their emotion.

‘A pathetic bastard.’

Humans were stupid anyway. I sucked on my pacifier fiercely.

“I’m so unlucky.”

The mirror reflected on me. Chup, chup, chup. 

Slap—! 

The maid slapped me hard on my forehead when I sucked hard.

My tears welled up in pain. I was so angry that I struggled fruitlessly.

‘If only I could use a bit more of my magic…’

I’ll definitely squeeze lemon in your eyes! 

No. I should turn her into a frog and let her eat flies.

“Uuuuugh…”

I felt sad and annoyed.

It might be funny, but I was getting angry that I am being treated like this by a petty servant.

The maid kicked my crib and went out of the room when she saw that I was going to cry.

“Abu! Waaah! Waaaaaaaaaah! Ooooo!”

I’m pissed off! I’m annoyed! Damn it!

I kept on struggling with my arms and legs but I couldn’t take off the heavy blanket because of my sausage-like limbs.

Besides, I was feeling too hot. It seemed like I had a fever and my mind was feeling stuffy.

‘Is it because I’m still a kid?’

I’m definitely going to burn myself to death. Am I a chicken or what? Are you grilling me to death!

After I struggled for quite some time, I couldn’t help but feel a little weak. I closed my eyes hard.

‘Just a little bit…’

It was so heavy that it was making it twice as hard for me to use my magic.

‘If it was before… I can move this with just a roll of my eyes.’

I couldn’t believe myself. I have put myself in this embarrassing situation.

“Uuuuuugh!”

I managed to push the blanket aside after struggling hard with my arms and legs.

I barely managed to get out of that heavy mass of a blanket. 

“Hoo…”

Clack. 

It suddenly felt empty when I relaxed my mouth.

“Ahwoo?”

My tongue suddenly shrank. My mind became dizzy and my eyes slowly closed.

……N, no way……

I could see my pacifier rolling on the floor.

They probably haven’t swept it properly yet, the floor in my room was filled with dust.

“Hashwi…”

Ah, shit…… I’m screwed.

It got dirty again. At this rate, my pacifier would definitely turn black, right?

I don’t even know what it’s made of but I’m pretty sure it wasn’t supposed to be gray.

“Shyoo…”

My pacifier…

Bang, my face drooped down.

My vision started to swirl and I suddenly felt faint and I finally reached out my hands to my pathetic face.

That was the last memory I had before I fainted.