Please Give Me the Pacifier - Chapter 6

“Abuu!”

There wasn’t anything in the air but I still shook my hand hard. I should probably do something, but I’m not sure about what I should do.

“Sigh, you’ve been a bit quiet lately.”

The maids all came here so suddenly just to complain but I did not understand what they meant.

I was so bored so I placed my thumb in my mouth.

‘Now that I’m sucking something, I start to think about the things that I forgot…’

“Abubu! Buwaa!”

“Ah, hyuu. Don’t be noisy. Just please be quiet.”

Something was placed in my mouth as I was starting to get annoyed.

I was shaking my hands and feet on the air without a care in the world. When I felt that there was something placed in my mouth, I instinctively sucked on it with a chup, chup. Then I suddenly came to my senses.

All of the bad and embarrassing things I have done passed through my mind.

A bitter sound came out of my mouth as I remembered laughing at nothing at all. I even shook my arms and legs just to check if there was something in the air.

‘My pacifier…’

I have to protect my pacifier. 

When my pacifier was gone, time would fly past and I would just lie down and stare blankly on the ceiling.

‘How much time has passed again since the last time I had my pacifier?’

This was a big problem. If I am not sucking on my pacifier then my brain wouldn’t work at all. I wouldn’t have any time to eat, play or rest at all.

I should quickly train and increase my mana. Then I will quickly take the information and run far away. After that, I will go back to Cillophia, get my revenge from those traitor bastards then live my life freely as a young man. 

“Even if you’re a half blood, it’s good that you were born in a good family. You won’t have to work and just need to live your life.”

Has she ever tried being stuck in this filthy, prison-like room that was full of dust? Even pigs who were meant to be fattened and slaughtered would exercise more than I do!

In addition, I’m still unaware of how far and isolated this room was. It took me a long time just to find the staircase!

I wanted to scream at them so badly but all that came out of my mouth was “Abuu.” or “Abuuuuuuu…” and also “Abububu!” so I just gave up.

‘I’ll definitely wash my pacifier today.’

The only reason my head was not going in circles was because of this baby essential, this dirty pacifier of mine.

‘How long have I been stuck in this dust bin?’

I sniffed my nose around. I could smell the musty air. It smelled like mold.

‘There’s probably mold somewhere in here, right?”

Bodies that have mana would often naturally purge and purify themselves of impurities. This was one of the reasons why mages did not get sick easily. Sometimes, they did not even get sick at all.

A disease would only manifest if the mana was not circulated properly or the mana overflowed.

‘I have to be careful too.’

If the mana was circulated too rapidly, or it expanded quickly, then it would definitely damage this body.

“Stay quietly like this today, too. Well, it seems like you’ve been as quiet as a lamb this week.”

“Abuu!”

I swung my arms and legs like I didn’t know anything. But when I heard her words I froze.

‘One week…?’

One week, what did she mean by one week?

It was like a bolt out of the blue.

Were you telling me that I have been doing this silly thing for a week? I have gone without my pacifier for one whole week?

‘I just ate, slept and pooped? I ate, slept and pooped for a week!’

The door closed with a click. I desperately tried to keep the door open as I clamped my mouth shut on my pacifier.

I maneuvered my so-called mana operating posture.

It was the hardest and required the most strength from my lower body. However, it was also the position that could let me use my mana in my most comfortable state.

‘This pose is just……’

Let’s just stop thinking about it.

My body started to float up. It was definitely because I haven’t used it for a week, that was why my mana was a bit hard to use. My body and my mana did not move like I wanted it to.

With a bit of an agonizing moan, my body safely landed on the marble floor.

“Buuuu……”

The sound that came out as I looked at the closed door with the pacifier in my mouth was a bit weird.

Anyway, this was my next hurdle… the door.

Unlike the last time, this time, the door was firmly shut. It was necessary that I carefully operate my mana to open the door.

First, move my mana to hold the door handle. Then, once I have firmly grasped the door handle, I should press down hard with my gravitational magic. 

It sounded easy but the control and concentration needed in this operation was extremely difficult. Especially with this body of mine. I am now a baby so my control over my mana was quite abysmal.

I looked left and right before I slowly laid my body down on the floor. Then, I raised my arms and legs towards the sky and slightly folded them in. Finally, I closed my eyes and started to think about the door. I imagined myself putting mana in it.

“Uhhboo……”

An ugly moan came out of my mouth as I felt a drop of cold sweat run down my small face.

I made the mana crawl on the door like how a worm crawled on the ground.

I have to have strength…… 

“Kkeung!”

I held it tightly, and then…

Click. 

My eyes opened the moment I heard the sound of the door opening.

Oh yeah, I finally opened it! 

As expected, even this small body couldn’t stop the greatest existence in this country.

Chup, chup. 

I should definitely wash my pacifier as a reward for myself. My heart tightened nervously as I thought of washing my pacifier.

With my pacifier in my mouth, I poked my head through the crack in the door to check for the presence of others.

I looked around carefully for a long time.

There was no one around.

I already memorized the way to the staircase since I saw it before. So it was quite easy for me this time.

Last time, I thought that the pond was farther away so I decisively chose to go to the fountain, but……

‘I will not be caught today. And I will definitely go to the pond this time.’

Usually, the pond was located in the garden. If that was the case, then I could go to the forest.

I’m definitely going to wash this smelly pacifier this time! 

My eyes were fierce as I quickly rushed towards the staircase. It was a relief that no one was coming up the stairs.

I hurriedly turned around and placed my butt out. Then, I lowered my lower half on the next step. It was easier this time since I had experienced it already.

I placed my arms on the higher step and placed my legs on the next step. I thought that it would be scary since I could fall down but it was quite simple.

One step down, two steps down… I kept on going down until I found myself on the floor.

Like what I did the last time, I crawled hurriedly behind the pillar to look around. I have to avoid the maids so I would not get caught.

‘I have to clean my pacifier.’

I can’t live with this smelly shit anymore. 

No one even knew how I felt with this double whammy. I have to suck on my pacifier to think, and I still have to suck on my pacifier just so my head would not turn blank.

I leaned on the pillar for support as I rolled my eyes and nodded at my thoughts.

Of course I wasn’t standing. My legs were too soft for that, however I was on all fours.

If I can just freely use my magic then this whole mess will just be completed in one simple flick of my fingers. 

‘My magic……’

How could they do this to me, and to think that I was on their side.

How did I become a child?

If I was a five or six year old child then I would not complain. But of all things, why was I reborn as a child who was not old enough to know how old she is…!

I sighed deeply.

The corridor turned quiet after I finished sighing.

It seemed like the mansion doors were usually open. I quickly crawled through the hall and slipped out of the mansion.

‘Let’s go that way!’

This time I had no hesitations.

I can’t take it anymore, I can’t continue sucking on this pacifier that looked like it was left in a dust bin for years! 

My limbs were throbbing in pain after passing through the marble floor. But I was finally on the grassy land!

‘It hurts.’

I heard before that a child should not crawl on hard places but…

‘My situation is a bit pardonable.’

No one would be more neglected than a half blood born in a proud aristocrat’s family.

The throbbing on my knees and palms slowly abated once I stepped on soft soil. However, it started to tingle when I pressed on the grasses.

‘Don’t worry, you’ll definitely be the world’s greatest mage of all time!’

Then you could step on the Heiron Empire and the Duke Crown.

As long as I am in this body, then I would make all of these wishes come true. 

My nose suddenly twitched sharply.

‘……Come to think of it, I think my nose is a bit flat. ‘

I rubbed my nose with my dirty hands then slowly hid in the grass. Just in case, so I would not get caught.

I noticed that there weren’t that many people who came here, I crawled from the front hall up until the garden but I did not see anyone.

‘Should I make this place my hideout and washing place for my pacifier?’

It was good that it was quiet.

My knees were now less painful so I started to crawl a bit farther.

As I crawled further inside the garden, I could see the pond from afar. The garden was like a castle garden with how big it is, flowers were even blooming everywhere.

‘Found it!’

I finally found the pond and there was water that was within my reach.

I crawled quickly in happiness. I could finally say goodbye to this smelly dust pit of a pacifier.

A dragonfly flew past me in a swish.

What, why are you looking at me? Are you laughing at me…… 

‘Was it just my delusion?’

It should be a delusion. 

No matter how much I thought about it, it wasn’t possible for a baby to talk to a dragonfly.

She’s wrapped up in a sense of inferiority since she’s too slow and too sensitive…… 

‘I have an inferiority complex?’

If you thought about it, this was a strange accident. Dragonflies flying and splashing water near the pond was just some sort of strange accident……

‘I’m not that unlucky, am I?’

I sat in front of the pond. Then I reached out for a small pebble and threw it in as hard as I could

Plop. 

It dropped straight down to the ground. I couldn’t even draw a parabola and throw it near the pond.

“……”

I did not know why, but the sound of the dragonflies flying was annoying.

I roughly grabbed on a fistful of anything around me and threw it out without even looking at it.

Plop, plop, plop, plop. 

How could I not draw even one parabola. Was a baby really this weak and stupid?

“Hashwi!!”

I’m so annoyed! 

In the end, I threw a handful of dirt. But it ended up just rippling the clear pond water. And the dragonflies just kept on flying over me.

‘……Aiming magic.’

I could aim by compressing the air via gravity magic and release it suddenly then it will blow away. Then these guys will definitely fall to the ground and faint. 

Unfortunately, I did not have the capacity to concentrate well plus I also did not have enough mana to do so.

I stared at my failed throws and the flying dragonflies for quite a while. I bowed my head in thought.

‘It’s still water.’

I could finally wash my pacifier.

I danced happily in my head as I held my pacifier with both of my hands.

I could finally wash my pacifier with water on the side……

Side……