The Best Actor Insists On Living With Me! - Chapter 507

Chapter 507: Chapter 506 Marriage, Love, The Past (6)
 

He was willing to give when he chose to give, to like when he wanted to like. But she wouldn’t invest much emotion in him.

Call her cold-blooded or call her heartless. Unless she really could meet a man who made her want to give her all, chances are she wouldn’t have much hope in love for the rest of her life.

What to do with so little feeling? After all, being with someone, does it really matter who? Bo Yan was at least endowed and attractive, and there was the sanctity of the law. He wasn’t into playing around either, so being with him wasn’t so bad. Besides, their goals were somewhat aligned, they could support each other in their careers.

However, the reality of a marriage pact, shared wealth, a joint family, raising a child—these were responsibilities she didn’t want to take on.

But Bo Yan had indeed stumped her. Xia Siyu wanted to snatch up two Best Actress awards before turning thirty, not falling behind Shang Feifei. But in truth, she understood that winning an award like that wasn’t something you could just get if you wanted it. Even if your performance was good and your film was decent, if the selection year was a competitive one, or there were other candidates who could influence public relations, you might not win the award.

Let alone winning two Best Actress awards by thirty, even one was difficult. Even Shang Feifei herself was desperately trying, so what about her?

If she kept failing to win, would she stay with Bo Yan indefinitely? If this deadline extended to her forties, or even fifties, with over half her life behind her, how would that be any different from just living day to day?

Although she had two bottom lines, one was love, which she was stingy with and wouldn’t give again. The second was children. Unless she met a man she desired to have children with, she would rather remain childless, even now while married to Bo Yan. She had already suffered enough. Even with loving parents, she couldn’t escape the bonds of family, and her childhood wasn’t a happy one.

If she planned to have children, it would only happen if she loved the man and was fully prepared to do so. The hardships she had endured, she would not let her own child go through the same.

Though they embraced each other in the most intimate way, they both harbored their own concerns, and afraid of being overheard by their neighbor, they hurriedly wrapped things up.

Maybe it was the exhaustion from the day’s travels and the afternoon of fetching water and milling, but with her body completely fatigued, Xia Siyu cleaned up briefly and then drifted off into peaceful sleep.

When Bo Yan returned from the restroom, he saw Xia Siyu sleeping soundly, with her eyes gently closed.

He walked over on tiptoe and sat on the edge of the bed, silently watching her.

She was passionate yet emotionless, her feelings came quickly and left even faster, but people often couldn’t keep up with her pace, only looking up to her from behind.

He wanted to keep her, speaking so humbly, yet she remained unmoved. That was the case with him, with Qin Baizhou, and with everyone else.

His only advantage might just be that he could still stay by her side.

But that didn’t mean anything.

He still couldn’t obtain anything.

The moonlight flowed quietly like water, casting a serene light over her.

His hand gently caressed her body, pale and luminous as jade in the moonlight.

The sad truth was, despite how much she despised him, he still longed to embrace her.

What if she had a child? What would happen?

Bo Yan had contemplated this question before. Xia Siyu valued family so much, if she had a child, she would definitely stay by its side, right?

A child that resembled both him and her.

Bo Yan felt as though the Demon had taken over his consciousness, and his hand that had lifted the small umbrella hesitated then quietly set it back down.