The Girls Who Traumatized Me Keep Glancing at Me, but Alas, It’s Too Late (WN) - Chapter 45

Posted on July 4, 2021by Soafp

“I’m sorry? You came all this way to help me.” (Himiyama)

“I’m sorry I couldn’t assist you better, let’s get a BTO and build it ourselves.” (Yuki)

“I don’t know much about computers, so I’ll leave it to you, Yukito-kun.” (Himiyama) 

　I went to the electronics store with Himiyama-san, but we had to leave without achieving our goal. Himiyama-san was considering buying a desktop computer, but she couldn’t find one suitable for her purpose.

“But is it called a gaming PC? Before you know it, they’re all over the place. I don’t play games on my computer, so I don’t really care about performance.” (Himiyama) 

“It’s hard to imagine Himiyama-san shooting a headshot at an enemy in an FPS game.……” (Yuki) 

　It’s a horror story to see the calm older sister, Himiyama-san, spouting off in the chat room and shooting everybody in a FPS game. I thought there might be some stressed out, darkened Himiyama-san out there, but I’m glad she’s not. I hope she will not have to deal with such a situation in the future.

“But why is it shining so brightly? Is there a reason for this, Yukito?” (Himiyama) 

“It’s the Dekotora theory.” (Yuki) 

“Dekotora?” (Himiyama) [TL: Japanese for decorating trucks but this time for the pc]

“It’s a misconception that it’s cool to just shine.” (Yuki) 

“So it’s really just glowing?” (Himiyama) 

“It’s just glowing.” (Yuki) 

“Does that mean anything to you?” (Himiyama) 

“Such a dispassionate point may be cruel at times.” (Yuki) 

　That’s why (?) after giving up on the gaming PC, we decided to order a BTO one. Himiyama-san doesn’t feel the romance of a shiny computer, so she simply wants to be able to use Office and powerpoint. She was not familiar with the market, and she had a very generous budget, so she had no trouble choosing.

That’s all well and good, but I had a simple question as to why Himiyama-san suddenly wanted to buy a computer.

“What’s with the sudden need for a computer?” (Yuki) 

“Hmm. I think I need to move on and not be trapped forever.” (Himiyama) 

　She looked at me with a gentle gaze. On the way home, Himiyama-san, who was walking next to me, seemed to be in a good mood, even though she had not achieved her goal.

“I see. I think so too.” (Yuki)

“You don’t understand much, do you, Yukito-kun?  I don’t think you should be so careless with your answers.” (Himiyama) 

“It’s funny. Can’t you understand social etiquette?　Isn’t the conversation with women supposed to be amicable and harmonious if you just affirm everything ……!” (Yuki) 

“Isn’t that a bit prejudiced?” (Himiyama) 

“You can’t expect a shady little guy like me to be a sociable person.” (Yuki) 

In addition, the other party is the natural enemy of Himiyama-san, no exaggeration. It was inevitable that my nerves would rise. I didn’t tell you this, but I’ve got my arms crossed right now.  Her chest is hitting me. Fooooooooooo!

“Do you have a girlfriend?” (Himiyama) 

“I’ve never had a girlfriend. I will firmly protest against any sexual harassment questions.” (Yuki) 

“Oh, you say that. –Are you sure you don’t want me to seriously harass you?” (Himiyama) 

　When Himiyama-san moved her body, the feeling on her arm became much softer than before. The warmth of the human skin can be felt through the thin clothes.

“I will remove it ♪” (Himiyama) 

“I’ll get down on my knees with all my heart, so please forgive me.” (Yuki) 

“You’re right. You want to touch it directly, don’t you?” (Himiyama) 

“The interpretation is so bad it’s fake!” (Yuki) 

　My arms are held tightly and I can’t move. While I was doing this, I could feel the sensation directly.

“It’s okay. It’s a thank you for today. You can consider it a non-issue.” (Himiyama) 

“Isn’t it a full count with 2 outs 9 times?” (Yuki) 

“I’m too embarrassed to go outside, so I’ll see you back home, okay?” (Himiyama) 

“I really feel that our mutual understanding is an illusion.” (Yuki) 

“Ufufufufufufufufufufu” (Himiyama) 

After all, people are stupid creatures who can’t understand each other. My fate was about to end. As I racked my brains for some way to get out of this predicament, I overheard Himiyama-san’s words, which I’m sure she wasn’t particularly aware of.

“But I’m sure you’d be popular with the girls.” (Himiyama) 

The words were spoken casually, but there was no intention behind them. Even so, I wondered if it was because of the situation I was in that I was curious.

“That’s not true. And I don’t want to be popular. I can only choose one person, and if I can’t even choose one person, I’m not going to be happy with that person.” (Yuki) 

“Yukito-kun?” (Himiyama) 

There are some people who can go out with many people at ease. If you say that’s talent, then you’re probably right. But I don’t have that kind of talent, and I can’t act innocently like a harem protagonist.

　If I don’t love someone, I don’t deserve to be loved by them.

　I’m sure there will be wonderful encounters in the future for Hinagi , Shiori, and the lascivious president. Not a rogue encounter like the one you had with me. I’m confident that they’ll find someone who cares about them the most. Unlike me, these girls have that kind of charm.

　If romance is only possible when both vectors of emotion are pointing in the same direction, then I can’t reciprocate anyone’s favor. It is a one-way street that cannot be fulfilled.

“It’s nothing. Let’s go home.” (Yuki) 

　I shake off my thoughts. Will I ever be able to respond to someone?There was no point in dreaming up such a fantasy.

“You’re still as strong as you were that day. But that strength must be…” (Himiyama) 

　Himiyama-san was about to say something when her grip on my arm tightened. Even though it is the middle of summer, our bodies are tightly pressed together. I wonder if people in distress on snowy mountains are ever this close to each other.

“Thank you, (please give me some space).” (Yuki) 

“Isn’t that the opposite of what you really think?” (Himiyama) 

“I’m an honest man. I’m going to stick my hand in the truth’s mouth and insult it inside its mouth.” (Yuki) 

“Fufufu. I don’t want to see the sea god Aukeanos vomit.” (Himiyama) 

　It was obviously difficult to walk, but apparently that didn’t matter to Himiyama-san. As we walked through the arcade, Himiyama-san stopped in front of a general store.

“Yukito-kun, would you like to take a look around?” (Himiyama) 

“Yes. I don’t have any luggage, so I’m fine.” (Yuki) 

　The store is not very large, but it is filled with antiques and small items. It was refreshing for me as I am not familiar with this kind of thing.

　Needless to say, I don’t have any interior decorations in my room. The room is too bleak, but now that I’m used to it, it doesn’t bother me at all. I don’t know why my sister’s and mother’s personal belongings have been increasing in my room lately. Why don’t you take your beauty products back to your room? In fact, they even went through the trouble of buying new pillows and putting them on my bed. Is my room a lodging facility?

“This luncheon mat is nice. I think I’ll buy one. Is there anything you want, Yukito-kun?” (Himiyama) 

“I have no taste in these things.” (Yuki) 

“That’s surprising. You seem to know so much about everything.” (Himiyama) 

“There is no such person.” (Yuki) 

　Sadly, I have no sense of aesthetics. At any rate, I think black is the right color for everything. I’m a gloomy little b*****d! What about clothes, etc., just jersey and pajamas? I feel the same.

“Let’s see if we can find something to commemorate the occasion.…… Oh, how about this, Yukito-kun? We can get matching mugs.” (Himiyama) 

“That’s a little……” (Yuki) 

They are a pair of mugs, and it would be quite unnatural if we were using them together. It’s a very unnatural thing for me and Himiyama to be doing this. Look, maybe I’m being overly perceptive, but the clerks are also looking at me like, “What kind of relationship do these guys have……?”

“I just moved into a new house, so I haven’t prepared any dishes for guests. I’ll have to start getting them little by little. First of all, I have to get one for Yukito-kun” (Himiyama) 

“No, I’m not coming.” (Yuki) 

“Oh, you’ll come, won’t you?” (Himiyama) 

“It’s not like I’m going to a strange old woman’s room. ……” (Yuki) 

“I live alone, so I’ll be relieved if you come.” (Himiyama) 

“Didn’t that apartment have a pretty good security system?” (Yuki) 

“I’ve got no security against you, Yukito-kun. You want to touch me, right?” (Himiyama) 

“Yes.” (Yuki) 

　–I gave in to the pressure of her smile.

　After returning from the grocery store, I was allowed to go up to Himiyama-san’s house.

　I finished my main task of ordering a computer while chatting with her. I listened to her request and combined the parts on my phone. She didn’t really care about the performance, and the cost was quite low. I decided on a larger monitor to make it easier to work with.

“I don’t know if this is the right time to ask, but what are you planning to do with it?” (Yuki) 

　Himiyama-san’s body jumped.

“I’m thinking of becoming a teacher.” (Himiyama) 

“I didn’t know that.” (Yuki) 

“So I thought I’d use it to make materials and stuff like that. I used to be able to ask a lot of questions from the teachers around me, but now I have to do it myself.”

“What kind of subjects do you teach?” (Yuki) 

“Elementary school students, I guess. I still like kids. ……. I just want to try one more time.” (Himiyama) 

“If you were my teacher, I’d be able to make progress.” (Yuki) 

“Yeah……?” (Himiyama) 

She smiles, but she also looks somewhat anxious. Unexpected reaction. As if searching for something, asking for something, or begging for forgiveness, Himiyama-san asks for an answer.

“Am I qualified to teach anyone, Yukito-kun?” (Himiyama) 

　I wondered if I was in a position to answer that question. I don’t know why she was asking me that. But her eyes were serious, and I felt that if I answered that I wasn’t qualified here, it would surely have a big impact on what Himiyama-san decided.

“I’m sure. I’m confident. I’m sure Himiyama-san will be kind enough to teach them.” (Yuki) 

“I- I’m sorry! I’m sorry for showing you such an ashamed part of me. ……” (Himiyama) 

Tears were spilling from her eyes. I hurriedly wiped them away with my handkerchief. I wondered if that was how important the decision was to Himiyama-san.

Himiyama-san is generous and receptive. She may be a reliable teacher for elementary school children. She teaches at a cram school about twice a week, but seeing her tears, I felt that it was still a big choice for her.

“You’ll do well, Himiyama-san.” (Yuki) 

“Thank you.” (Himiyama) 

“Nyaa!?” (Yuki) 

　I’m hugged tightly. I can feel the soft touch directly. This feeling is not good! It’s still off!　In fact, why did she hug me? My daily life has always been a free hug every day.

“There is no immediate impact, there is no immediate impact.”

　As I desperately try to stop my rational mind from crossing the Rubicon River, I think about the importance of super levees. If reason breaks down, it’s over.

　After this, I was hugged for ten minutes.

　　I reached a new level of enlightenment. I am the founder, Yukito Kokonoe.

“You’re leaving already? I wanted to give you a big thank you.” (Himiyama) 

“I’m afraid I’ll be exhausted if you do.” (Yuki) 

“Ara ara? What were you expecting?” (Himiyama) 

“If I say it out loud, I’ll get banned.” (Yuki) 

“I don’t know what you mean, but can I put it in my mouth?” (Himiyama) 

“Oii! I hope they’re not watching!” (Yuki) 

　All I could do was pray. I was helpless.

“Thank you so much for today. My heart is a little lighter now.” (Himiyama) 

“That’s good to hear. But I always wonder if your favorability meter is broken.” (Yuki) 

“No matter what you say, my favorability goes up.” (Himiyama) 

“That’s a bug. You have to patch it.” (Yuki) 

　For some reason, Himiyama-san’s favorability toward me is high. It must have only been a short time since we met, but she seems to like me a lot. To be honest, in terms of the frequency with which she sent me messages on my phone, Himiyama-san surpassed the fresh and handsome guy.

“”Well, please call me when your computer arrives. Let’s set it up.”

“Please do. Oh, but you can come over anytime regardless.” (Himiyama) 

“No, I can’t.” (Yuki) 

“How long can you resist me? Fufufufu” (Himiyama) 

“Oh, crap, oh, crap , oh, crap.” (Yuki) 

　Oh, man. While I was shivering like a frog stared at by a snake, Himiyama-san’s phone rang.

“Well, I’m going home.” (Yuki) 

“Oh, Yukito-kun. I’m sorry. I’ll see you next time.” (Himiyama) 

“Okay.” (Yuki) 

　I’m going to take advantage of this and escape. I can’t miss this chance! As I put on my shoes at the entrance, she takes the trouble to see me off. I waved her off, and as I walked out the door, Himiyama-san picked up the phone.

“Yes, hello. Who is this?” (Himiyama) 

　I wondered if it was someone I didn’t know. There was no way I could eavesdrop. As I was about to leave, I noticed that Himiyama-san’s voice had changed.

“—-Eh, Mikiya-san?” (Himiyama) 

　I thought I heard those words. I remembered that Himiyama-san had mentioned that name to me once before. …… I couldn’t remember anything more than that, and I left the place as it was.

TL: Next 3 chapter will be about his elementry school accusation.