Tae-wan said dryly. Rather than saying that she was a colleague, the way he called Nayeon-yi’ familiarly tore her apart.

“… yeah”

Hayeon replied one beat late. she knew that Tae-wan wasn’t interested in Nayeon. Nevertheless, wasn’t it strange that it’s a constant scandal? Maybe Na-Yeon is interested in him. But Ha-Yeon couldn’t say anything. Because she doesn’t know his job well enough to comment.

“okay. I’ll wash up. I have to leave in 4 hours.”

He entered the bathroom without hearing her answer. Shhh. The sound of water could be heard over the door. A faint light was seen. Hayeon looked at the door. Tae-Wan was always standing in a place of the spotlight.  and she had to always be standing like this beyond the door of his world. She felt like a shadow. When did it start? She asked, but there was no answer.

Ha-Yeon removed her hand that grabbed the door handle and held it. She pushed the door and stepped in. Hazy smoke leaked out. Tae-Wan’s gaze, under the shower, turned to her. He was soaked in water with his eyes half-open.

“What?”

He asked with a tired voice. It seemed like he had something to say.

“Would you like to wash together?”

Ha-Yeon asked in a quiet voice, leaning against the door frame. He looked at her silently. It was the first time she made such an offer.

“Come on.”

Tae-wan reached out his wet hand. Ha-Yeon took off her pajamas. Her white body was revealed under the light. As she entered the bathroom, warmth hit her. Ha-Yeon stretched out her hand and grabbed his. They were big and hard hands. Tae-wan pulled her into the shower. The water soaked her body. The temperature of the water was too hot for her, but Tae-Wan’s body was hot so he managed to withstand it. Hayeon raised her head and looked at Tae-wan’s face. High nose, cool eyes, tight lips. There was no flaw anywhere.  His eyes, nose, and mouth were nicely arranged.

Tae-wan silently bowed his head and met her lips. It was a natural movement as if following a set procedure. Their lips touched, and tongues intertwined. Whether if it was enough to covet each other’s thoughts, he ran through her mouth. Each time, the cool scent of toothpaste spilled into her mouth.

“haa.”

She was out of breath more than usual, perhaps because of the water flowing over my sparse face. Ha-Yeon, who was gasping lightly, grabbed Tae-wan’s neck. Unlike the sound of water, sticky and wet sound entered her ears. Each tongue moved in each other’s mouths, but they are so close, why can’t she hear anything as if she were deaf? It was unclear whether there was anything to say or whether there was nothing she wanted to hear. Ha-Yeon hugged him closer wishing to forget the faint thoughts in her head. Something swollen between his legs stabbed her belly. Tae-Wan’s hand, holding Ha-Yeon, ran down her back. His breath touched her shoulder. Fingers came down between her ass and touched her sensitive area.

“ahh.”

The movement of his fingers and the feeling of the flowing stream of water touching her shoulders. His index finger rotated round and round on the tender flesh. Her lower part became warm with the gentle movements that seemed to be young and soothing. Hayeon’s legs clenched as she was flowing. However, his finger was already in place, no matter how hard she shook, he easily penetrated. His movements got bolder, whether he felt the water or other hot liquids. He dug into her flesh and repeatedly penetrated her.

“haha.”

While Ha-Yeon was breathing, an unfamiliar sensation came into her tender flesh.

“Ugh!”

Ha-Yeon touched the nape of his neck with one hand and the wall with the other. His fingers pushed in and out repeatedly. One finger became two.

“Sigh…. Ah! Ahs!”

Ha-Yeon rested her forehead on his shoulder. He moved as if he knew well where she was weak. The finger that had been digging deeply pushed out like a sweep. Light pain and strange pleasure spread.

Ugh… !”

His fingers entered, repeatedly. Every time he did that, her head became distant then came back.

“Na Ha-Yeon.”

“haha.”

Tae-wan called, but she couldn’t answer.

“catch.”

At his words, Ha-yeon took her hand on the wall and grabbed his penis. Something huge and hot filled her hands. Even in the midst of hazy smoke, her hand moved. It just like sex with him that happened dozens of times. Now, even with her eyes closed, she knew what to do and where and how to stimulate him.

“mhh.”

As Hayeon moved her hand, he blew a low breath. her hand moved faster than usual. It was because of the pouring water.

“Wow.”

“huu.”

The sound of breath leaking from them tangled. Tae-wan removed Ha-Yeon and turned her around. Something dug behind her before she could hold the tile wall properly.

“Oh.”

Hayeon closed her eyes for a moment. His closed eyes trembled. Even though his fingers had already entered, it was difficult after a long time.

“Sigh.”

Tae-wan’s breath hit her back. Hayeon’s hand, grasping his pelvis, moved. Their lower body touched and fell repeatedly. Every time his penis dig deep, her ass shook. Her chest touched the tile wall and fell. There was a moment of surprise caused by the cool texture of the tile. Every time he digs deeper, her mind became hazy and thoughts floated away. As he removed himself, a sticky liquid leaked between her legs. Tae-wan, who faced her, raised Ha-Yeon’s leg and placed it on his shoulders, the gap between her open legs revealed itself. Tae-wan glanced at Ha-Yeon’s wet place and took his own.

“Sigh.”

There was pleasure simply by touching it. He slowly pushed his penis back in, and at some point pulled it back.

“Uhhhh.”

Ha-Yeon stopped breathing. her head was dark as if it had been a battle. As her thoughts disappeared, Heat rose under his penis. In time he moved slowly. He seemed to enjoy it, but soon after, he started moving quicker.

“Ala…! Ah!”

Ha-Yeon released an unbearable groan. Her toes trembled. The hand that held her was full of strength. At this moment, she wanted to ask. Why did she feel like she couldn’t reach him even when they were intertwined? And for the pain in her chest.

* * *

When Hayeon opened her eyes, Taewan was gone. The blankets were neatly arranged, and all the clothes he had taken off were no longer there. Hayeon would have thought it was a dream if it were not for the disorganized chair. Ha-Yeon got up from her seat and picked up her phone from the side table. No text or call came from Taewan. She was thinking of making a phone call, but she sent a message instead.

[When did you leave?]

His answer will come back late. Maybe he wouldn’t even answer. From some point on, he responded very late to her text. Sometimes there was no answer. She didn’t remember exactly when it started. It was a change made over time, little by little, like the leaves turning red in the autumn breeze. Their contact reduced to few hours and late responses, his time was spent in meeting or filming rather than looking for each other, days pass of only hearing about him from others, and an anniversary that was considered important became forgotten…But more than anything else, he was always changing.

His gaze didn’t stay on her for long. His gaze turned to another place as if she were boring. His laughter could only be seen on the screen. The only time they met properly was when they had sex. Even then, when it was over, he quickly fell asleep. As if she had finished her duty. Since when did she started feeling this way?

Rudeness to comfort, boredom to familiarity, habit to love. Ha-Yeon put her phone down and looked out the window. The gray sky was telling her that winter had come. The seasons changed overnight. Just like the summer that seemed to be going sluggishly withdrawn and autumn came, and the autumn quickly disappeared and winter came. Maybe human relationships are the same. The love we used to have can turn into a burden overnight. A Love that had changed like the leaves. Hayeon quietly closed her eyes. her eyes looked at the footprints left on the floor by Taewan, who disappeared silently.