When The Villainess Loves - Chapter 4

When you don’t know anything, just smile. Since I’m a newbie in this world, I’m lacking a little concerning common sense.

I looked at him as dimly as possible, seeking his understanding. Then Rox’s eyes, which were facing me, got a little wet. Oh god …

Have you noticed it?

“Yes, that’s right. That’s the disease that the poem originated from.”

He didn’t caught on after all!

As if I had understood, I was relieved by him not finding out about my lack of common sense.

He nodded and immediately ende the topic, as if he understood quickly.

“I see. Rather than that, Rox, I’ve come to recieve some help from you. I hope that this anaemia could be soothed.”

“Are you talking about soothing the anaemia?”
He made a face as if he heard something he had never thought to hear.

No, why not? Anaemia is a great distraction to my fangirl life!

I spoke in a more serious tone to raise awareness on the serious problem: “I hope you don’t make mistakes where you should never do them.”

And he looked at me with indescribable eyes.

Well, you’re not going to say no, are you?

I continued with a dry heart.

“I don’t want it to last a long time. I just need to be in somewhat perfect condition for tea time.”

Doctor Rox remained silent for a long time. After a while he spoke in a more subdued tone: “…there’s a way if it’s just once or twice. It’s not a usually used method though.”

“Really?”

Wow! As expected. The expert’s knowledge is really the best.

It’s a shame though that it’s only once or twice, but I’ll have to meet the original characters while I am in good shape.

I asked with the intention of using it only when meeting the emperor.

“What is it?”

“…it’s the poison known as ‘Black Death’ in the west..”

“Poison”?

“If you use a small dosis of it, you’ll be forced to stay sane for about half an hour. After that, the side effects take off and you have to sleep long. If you use it three times, it will be poisonous, but not after two dosages.”

“Oh, that’s perfect.”

The tip of my lips began to twitch. So, where can I get it?

As I looked at him with a soft smile, he said with a sigh.

“The reason I said this is because this is… the only way, but I never thought it was safe. Are you sure you want to use it?”

I held back a little excitement and nodded calmly.

No wonder Rox looked at me speachlessly, but he gradually lowered his eyes and suddenly dropped his head.

“…?”

He whispered in a very sad tone: “Your Highness…”

Uh. Ugh. I think I know what is coming next.

“As you know, no cure has been found for this disease.”

“Oh, yes, I know.”

Don’t be scared! I’m not going to kill you once I knows this!

With that in mind, I drew a more gentle smile. Because it was obvious that they would be afraid of me anyway after all the rumors  floating around of me being a villainess.

The next moment, I turned completely embarrassed.

This is because the old doctor began to shed tears.

Uh. Oh, I’m not going to kill you.

Anyway, the sight of the old man crying was truly embarrassing.

How am I supposed to calm him down?

“Don’t cry  Rox.”

The tender voice popped out awkwardly. However, the doctor began to shudder louder. Maybe it was a detonator.

“Your Highness, I’m so incompetent…”

Oh, that’sthe reason.  My God, you’re a professional!

“It’s all right, so don’t blame yourself. You have been a great help to me.”

I mean it!

The doctor finally began to shake his shoulders. I patted him on the shoulder with an awkward smile.

(Here’s kinda a shift in time, which feels really awkward to me. It’s also of the P.O.V. of the doctor and he’s going through their prior dialogue.)

Rox, a doctor at the palace, was struggling with failure.

“Your Highness.”

The groan-spitting words were referring to the owner of this palace.

His agony was a subject that was too careful to speak out loud. It would be the princess’s biggest weakness.

‘Raphaelis.’

The disease called Raphaelis was close to a curse. Since it is a disease that affects the soul, no matter how much you treat your body, there is no improvement.

There is little known about the disease, only about the process of dying and the fact that blue flowers bloom on the grave of the dead after burial.

That’s the disease, the princess if suffering from.
She was prepared to die and informed about her incurable illness.

He knew the notoriety of Princess Leticia. And all those terrible rumors, all the actions that seem to be out of the ordinary in recent years… A little bit, he was prejudiced.

‘It’s unbelievable. I’ve been proud to have treated everyone fairly as a doctor.’

The way she spoke, which was supposed to cold like frost, was just calm, and there was warmth in her mimic.

I couldn’t find the reaction of the mentally driven person he saw a while ago.

She began to speak of her symptoms calmly.
It was weird to say that she was vomiting blood, and she specifically said that she had no place.*

There, Rox felt that something was wrong.

It looked like it doesn’t concern her, like it’s about someone else’s business.

“I’ve never seen such a reaction in my life.”

The princess just looked at him in a friendly way. As if any result of her counseling is okay.
When I mentioned Blairwell’s poem, the wise princess seemed to understand the meaning right away.

There was an empty look in her eyes. Then she said with a big smile.

“Rox, I’ve come looking only for a favor. I wish this anemia could be lessened. At least I wish to don’t make make a mistake where I shouldn’t”, said the princess, who is only 19 years old, in a calming way.

She was incredibly mature. She also sounded resolutely, even though she has just gotten prescribed extreme poison. It’s perfect.

He was truly thankful. By that time he could not look at the princess straight.

There is no cure.

Eventually, when he told her about it, tears began to leak out of the older men’s eyes.

It was then: “Don’t cry, Rox.”

The adult voice was somewhat clumsy.

Nevertheless, she was friendly.

“It’s all right.”

It was only then that he realized that she had never shown a slight bit hope of getting better throughout her stay here. She just said it was okay.

…it can’t be.

Only then did Rox realize it. Your Highness had already known.

That you are destined to die soon.

Maybe she has prepared for this situation countless times. If not, how could she be so calm?

‘How can I…’

“Don’t blame yourself. You were a great help to me.”

How can she be so warm?

The old man’s eyes are dim, but he can see more instead.

He guessed the weight of the painfull years she had lived frok the resoluteness of her Highness the princess.

Rox sighed again. And he made up his mind.
Let’s at least try. Let’s pretend to be crazy about the legendary panacea.

“There must be an ancient book on the Euigong.”*2

When he was young, he even remembered a doctor’s oath and held it dear to his heart. Let’s try, just like the young days when we only thought about the wellbeing of our patients.

His eyes were shining little with determination.

***

“Well, will this work?”

Two pills poisoned with ‘Black Death’. And in case I will be short of blood because of the bloodloss, I got a lot of blood supplements on me.

There was no problem now.

I filled an unknown container I found in the drawer with the blood supplements. Then I quickly laid down my tired body to be examined.

“I’m going to visit his Majesty the Emperor tomorrow.”

Before I knew it, the snow was falling heavily. Soon I fell asleep.

As soon as I finished eating the next day, I swallowed one of the pills poisoned with’ Black Death’ that Rox gave me.

“Hoo. Let’s do well.”

It was because of my succession right that I’ll be visiting the Emperor.

The main male lead in the original work was a person who never forgave those who showed signs of longing or touching his possessions. And for Ariel, the heroine, whom he treated as warm as a spring breeze.

“The gap was just annoying rather than cool.”
That may be because I liked Leticia-unnie. However, her right to succeed the throne was the only factor that could cause the crown prince to become obsessed with the princess.*3

“I wish I could hit the back of his head and run away, but I can’t, can I? The problem is that the obsessed man is a man with no one to have a slight chance against him in a fight but Daniel.”

It was the result of the emperor’s full support and his own ability.

In other words, the best way for me to react as a powerless princess is to erase my unpleasantness in his eyes.

So even if I was thinking of leaving in three months, giving up my succession right was a must. Otherwise, he’ll come after me and kill me wherever I go.

“No, he will be obsessed with Ariel.”
But now, without the right of succession, I will be able to leave the palace at any time in three months.

“I hope I can get a lot of money when I leave. If it doesn’t work, I will just take some money and valuables from the palace with me.”

If that doesn’t work, there’s a way even after I leave later: It is to take away all the good things that Ariel, the female leas, will discover in the next 10 years.

Then my plan to live a safe and easy life will be completed.

“Let’s get this over with!”

I will visit the Emperor immediately.